Thursday, December 29, 2011

Getting ready

I ordered my supplements this week and they should be getting here today. While doing my research on fitness and nutrition I found out that there are many essential vitamins we should be taking in order to restore and repair our bodies. Crazy that while training for the marathon two years ago I didn't take any vitamins or supplements. Although I was still able to achieve my goal I know I could have done better if I was properly educated on fueling my body properly.

I know that it was all by the spirit and grace of God that I was able to train and run that 13.1 miles. Knowing what I know now I can truly say that I was "powered by His spirit", like the back of my shirt stated.

Here is what I ordered:
Branched Chain Amino Acids – Leucine, Isoleucine and Valine – promote protein synthesis, lean muscle growth, and recovery! Branched Chain Amino Acids, which are building blocks of muscle mass and size. Metabolized directly in the muscle, BCAAs, may improve nitrogen retention by sparing other amino acid groups for repair and rebuilding.* The Branched Chain Amino Acids (BCAA's), so named because of their unique branched chemical structure, are essential in that the body cannot make them from other compounds. In recent times, these amino acids have been investigated for their potential anticatabolic (preventing muscle breakdown) and anabolic (muscle building) effects.*

Smart Blend is a cutting edge, proprietary blend of "smart fats" that contains important essential fatty acids (both essential and conditionally essential), which may be depleted in the diets of many athletes and exercise enthusiasts. Regular supplementation with Smart Blend ensures a complete mixture of essential fatty acids such as omega-3, omega-6, EPA, DHA, CLA and GLA. Smart Blend provides optimal support for reducing body fat, increasing muscle tissue recovery and supporting normal testosterone and insulin production.

Vitamins, minerals and other essential nutrients are the body's fundamental building blocks. Among other things, they contribute to our energy levels, immunity, performance and overall vitality. Opti-Women has been designed as a comprehensive Nutrient Optimization System complete with botanicals, antioxidants, and other gender-focused components.* By packing 40 active ingredients into one pill, much more than a multi has been created.

I was told by someone that vitamins are isolated nutrients and they are not essential for our bodies. I understand that opinion but I also know that food is not what it used to be. So even if I have the time to eat all the calories and whole foods that I need the food won't have everything I need to reach the goals I desire. I also have to look at the people who are providing me this information. Do they look the way I want to look?

I am not a doctor, nutritionist or scientist so I can't evaulate all the information I get but right now I feel the need to take supplements in order to 1) achieve the goals I have 2) great a healthy body.

There are a few more supplements I need to order but this will get me started for the first phase of my transformation.

I also went to get a monthly memebership at my local community center gym. I don't want to jump into a commercial gym membership right now for a couple of reasons.
1. They can be expensive if you are not able to pay a large one time yearly rate.
2. Don't want to sign a contract.
3. Don't want to be in a large gym setting right now.

I love to workout privately and be in my own zone. When I get a little more familiar with my routine and have the money to pay for a year contract I will go ahead and do that but for now I think the small community center gym will work for me. They seem to have all the equipment I need for my first 4 weeks of my program.

I have some other awesome news to share but I will tell you about it in a later post. I am still getting all the details together.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Cleansing and preparation

This week is focused on cleansing my body from all the not so good stuff I ate during the holidays. I didn't eat a lot of food but I ate lots of sugary food. Since October I have been eating lots of chocolate, cookies and cake. I did put on about 8 lbs since October which is disappointing but I know I will get it off soon.

I am not taking anything artificial to cleanse my body. I am just staying well hydrated, eating as many raw veggies as I can, drinking green tea and avoiding sugar and processed foods. I have started my meal plan and will be back to logging my daily workouts and food here on the this blog.

I am excited about this new journey and will do my best to keep you updated on a weekly basis with pictures and journals.

This weeks food has been planned as follows:

Meal #1: tofu scramble burrito (tofu, veggies, pico de gallo in an Ezekiel sprouted tortilla) hot green tea, and water.
Meal #2: 4 homemade protein bars (will post recipe later)
Meal#3: quinoa, beans and broccoli with pico de gallo
Meal #4: homemade hummus and raw veggies
Meal #5: fish, sweet potato, veggies and salsa
Meal #6: protein shake (water, protein powder, strawberries, 1/2 banana)

I will post after this week and update you on my progress and accomplishments. This week I will not be doing any strenous workouts. I will eat to fuel muscle growth and avoid all processed food. CLEAN FOOD, LEAN BODY.

My workout program officially starts Monday. I will post that schedule later this week.

Monday, December 26, 2011


Okay this is my personal journal of my journey so I guess I might as well start today.

Today I am super excited because I am so motivated, determined and prepared to do some really hard training this year. I have been doing a lot of research and educating myself on bodybuilding.

My goal for this year is to get as lean as I can and achieve the body I have dreamed of for my 35th birthday. I have lost 70+ lbs on my own and I know that I can achieve this new goal the same way.

What has stopped me from achieving this sooner? My mind. Now that I have conquered that beast I can go for it.

I have my plan mapped out. My workout schedule and meal plans are all written out and I have them in a nice binder. This week I am going to treat myself to a few new gym outfits and a new pair of shoes.

I am prepared to succeed and I am about to go out there with relentless passion and determination and fly....I am going to make it happen this year.

Stay tuned for pics, and a little more information on my new workout plan. Hope you are motivated to pursue your goals this upcoming year.


If you are familiar with my blog or know me personally you know my beliefs about wellness and how the mind plays an intricate part of transformation.

Over the last 2 years I have done a lot of growing, soul searching, learning and transforming. I have developed a pretty strong sense of who I am and in turn was able to get rid of a lot of heavy emotional baggage.

The journey to this place has not been easy. I can honestly say I am not all the way where I want to be but I have chosen to stay positive this year. I have decided to embrace all the positive and amazing things about myself. From that place of surrender and peace I will see the most growth in my life.

Reflecting back will only be used as a reference point. I will no longer make excuses, feel sorry for myself or allow the past to blind me from the visions I have for my future.

I realized that when you are so used to being abused, rejected or going through drama you tend to bury yourself in a cocoon. Even though you have transformed you are afraid to break out. You are afraid to spread your wings and fly. You are afraid to succeed and truly be yourself.

We are often afraid of falling or being judge. We would rather stay curled up in what feels comfortable....the place we are used to.....what is familiar to us. Even if it is stealing our very breath and squeezing the life out of us. We would rather die than step out.

In order to fulfill all my dreams and visions I have to step out. Even if I struggle to fly I have to try.....I have to manifest my calling.

I know without a shadow of doubt that this year will be one of the most amazing years I have had yet. I feel it in my spirit and I am truly excited.

I pray that you will continue to follow me and that I meet new followers along this journey.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

New Year....New Mind.....New Body


Friday, December 9, 2011


Hey I have not been on her in a little while. I thought I might update this blog in case someone is secretly following me. But to be honest with you I really post blogs so that I can look back and also have some form of accountability.

So I finally finished my personal training certification course and I am about to do my final exam. I am a little nervous because deep down inside that little insecure me wants to show it's ugly little head.

I know I can and will do more than fine because there is no pressure with the online exam but I always seem to try to find a place to hide. I had someone tell me that I was afraid of my own monsterous potential. I think they are right.

Although I am much more confident than I used to be I think I worry about disappointing myself. I think about being less than perfect as if I need someones approval to be awesome. :)

I think we all battle this from time to time. We want to be great and accomplish our goals and we truly all have the ability to do it but we doubt ourselves. As I learned from my daughter's Jr High play The Lion King.....We don't truly know who we are.

We are all connected in the great big circle of life. We all come from God and depend on one another to help reach that next level in our lives. We don't serve anyone any good by playing small. We are great and were created to fulfill so much more than we even know we are capable of. That calling is what drives us to seek better and never settle. Many of us step forward and attempt to answer that call and other just hide. I refuse to hide anymore. I know I can and I will. It is so close I can taste it.

I was inspired by God to read a scripture that I had never even heard of before. It said, you have circled this mountain long enough. Wow! How much louder must He speak before I take heed to His word?

Sometimes taking on a new journey requires us to let go of somethings and sacrifice others. I think nothing is more valuable than walking in total peace as you manifest your calling and live authentic to yourself.

Thanks for reading.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

So proud of myself

I am so proud of myself for the changes I have made in my life. I sit back and think about how far I have come and how much I have accomplished. Although like I have said several times before my journey and progress has been slow I have never looked back. I continue to move forward and have never stopped feeling inspired to reach my goals.

I can't even imagine where I would be and how I would feel if I let my fear and insecurities keep me hidden under the oppression of my unhealthy self. I shed so much over the last 2 years and for that I am so proud and grateful.

God has been my constant source of strength and motivation. When I want to feel sad or disappointed He reminds me that everyday is a new day.....I can pick myself back up and make each day count.

Everyday I must make the conscious decision to live deliberately. I must make the choices that support my goals and dreams. I must make my reality and pursue life with passion.

Settling for mediocrity and believing I am anything less that AMAZING is not what I was prewired to do. I was created to be the best God has to offfer. I was created to live fully as myself and break down every barrier that tried to come before me and my TRUTH.

We were all created this way. We all have the same power to get up each and everyday and live a beautiful, prosperous, healthy and joy filled life.

So I will continue to answer that call to greatness and I will wake up each and every day knowing that I have the power to fulfill my dreams and help other do the same. :)

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Hey! Quick Update

I am back in the swing of things again and I am focusing on the next stage of my fitness goals. I am down 5 lbs and have 15 more to go to reach my first goal weight. It has taken me a long time to get here but I can't beat myself up about it. The most important part is that I have not gained my weight back with the exception of 5lbs here and there.

I am steadily making improvements in my diet and exercise routine. My body has changed so much in the last two years since I got serious about my health and I am happy about it.

I can only move forward from here and continue to stay dedicated in my pursuit to be healthy and help inspire others to do the same.

I have a small goal of losing 15-20 lbs by my birthday on December 11th and I know I can and will do it.

I have recently added fish into my vegan diet. So I guess you can say I am not completely vegan now. I still don't eat meat, chicken, turkey, milk or eggs and try my best to eliminate refined sugars and oils.

I have been going back and forth in my head with the fish eating thing and finally decided I wanted to start eating it. I don't feel wrong for doing it. It works for me and makes me feel good.

I decided to incorporate it in my diet at least 3-4 times a week to help me reach my fitness goals. I just started yesterday so I am not sure how it is working yet. I didn't get sick or anything so I think it will be a good and smooth transition.

So today my food journal and workout journal went as follows:

8:00am- Turbo Sculpt (40 minute full body sculpting DVD using 20 lb weights)
Using the 20 lb weights was a very challenging thing. They recommend women use 3-5 lb weights but I wanted a huge calorie burn and I really want to tear my muscles down so they can rebuild bigger and stronger. I was strong enough to do it and I was proud of my accomplish.

9:00am- protein (recovery) shake- soy protein powder, water, frozen strawberries, 1/2 banana, 1/2 tsp PB, 1 TBsp flaxseed. (protein is essential for muscle growth and recovery)

12:00pm- small sweet potato, cod seasoned with Mrs. Dash and lemon and topped with Pico de Gallo, sauteed Kale. (trying to keep my sodium intake low)

2:00pm- small apple and 10 cashews
( I did have 3 mini kit kats): (HALLOWEEN candy in my office...BOOOOO very scary;)

For dinner I plan on eating some veggie pizza. I also plan on doing some cardio tonight for my 2nd workout of the day. Tomorrow will be an active recovery day so I will do some yoga.

After my last workout I will drink another protein shake but with less fruit.

Thanks for checking on me. BYE!

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Just a little update

So I haven't been on here much as you may notice. I know that no one really reads this except for one of my family members but it was a cool way of tracking my progress and keeping myself accountable.

The thing is that I really don't have much time anymore. I am currently trying to finish my online personal training courses and focus more on living a healthy lifestyle.

That requires me to have less time on the computer. I am not really being hard on myself with my food or my workout routines right now.

I am conscious of my eating and try to be good but I do have an occasional naughty food here and there. I haven't been doing any heavy exercising because I have been busy studying and also I got sick.

I do plan on starting a new routine this week because I have some big goals to reach by my birthday. I am still 20 lbs away from my first weight loss goal and it is going to take consistancy and dedication to reach it.

I know I can do it and I am determined to nail those extra 20 lbs in the coffin soon. I know what I have to do it but I just have trouble being consistant with it.

I do know what dedication and consistancy can do though so I know what will happen if I stick to it. I will try to get back on here and update more often if you promise to read and comment...LOL!

Thanks for checking on me. :)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Stopping by to say hi

I haven't had time to update this blog much lately. Honestly I haven't really had the desire to either. I am trying to continue this journey in a very intimate and personal way right now.

Not that I don't want to share my success and wisdom with anyone but rather I want to stay focused on what really matters. It is (like I have said time and time before) not about the numbers on the scale. I am much more focused on my soul evolving as a spiritual being and letting it reflect outwardly.

We can lose all the weight we want and reconstruct our temples but if the mind is not in shape then the success is not as sweet. What I mean is we can have a beautiful, healthy body but still be so sick in our minds. We can still be self conscious, self loathing and down right insecure with what we see in the mirror.

I don't want that for myself. I want to fully evolve, grow and transform every part of my life and fully embrace who I am to the core of my Being.

So these past few weeks and months I have been living in that moment. I take in each breath and rejoice in every abundant blessing of this life. I am truly blessed not because of what I have in the physical realm but because I am conscious of where it comes from.

I know that the same God that created the Heavens and the Earth has also created this body and mind. He has created it so that I can rejoice in it and give Him all the praise with it.

Thanks for checking in on me.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

My first bathing suit

So I had to shop for a bathing suit last week. I am going on a vacation to a waterpark in a few weeks and want to enjoy it with my daughter and bestfriends. I am definitely having a difficult time with this.

I have a large chest and can't find suits that give me support in the right places..LOL! If I get a larger size to accomodate my top half then the bottoms are too big and so is the rest of the suit.

I found one that looked good but it had a tear in it that I didn't notice until I got it home. I had to take it back and they didn't have another one in the size I needed.

So I am back on a mission to find my first bathing suit as an adult. I can't remember the last time I even wore a bathing suit because it was when I was a small child.

I am happy to say that I will wear one this summer and it is because I am learning to accept myself as I am. I am still not at my goal. I know it is taking long but I am learning so much along the way.

I do plan on wearing swim shorts on top of my bottoms though because I am very modest and don't feel comfortable walking around in panties...LOL! But I am not going to cover up my body with a t-shirt and that makes me feel amazing.

I will try to post pics of me in my bathing suit in a couple of weeks. Thanks for reading.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Quick Update

HI! I just came to check in and give you an update on my status. I am currently taking a break from blogging and being on the computer in general. I am resting my mind and working on some other important things in my life.

I am still eating well and working out when I have the time. I do not do as much cardio as I used to. I am focused more on strength training and eating well. I have been doing really well with the exception of a few bad snacks or binges.

It is really hard for me when that time of the month comes around because I tend to lose control of my sweet cravings. I don't eat really bad things but I do tend to eat more naughty things that I want to.

I am learning to not put so much pressure on myself and just listen to my body. I am not going to beat myself up. I am going to learn to let go and live this healthy lifestyle.

I am not just trying to shed this weight I am trying to shed the unhealthy thoughts that have caused me to become and remain overweight. Poor body image and low self esteem have kept me overweight so it is important to address those issues as well.

So far I have managed to lose 8lbs since April. I am happy for that progress. I see many changes in my body. I have much more muscle definition and my tummy feels a lot tighter.

Best of all I feel good in my body. I am wearing clothes that I wouldn't normally wear. I am not going to allow my mind to control my life and emotions anymore. I am who I am and if I don't like it I know I have the power to change it.

So that is what is going on right now in my weight loss journey. Lots of changes are happening in my life and I am excited about them. I give God thanks everyday for every single victory and blessing. I acknowledge His strength, power and wisdom along this journey and know that I couldn't do it without Him.

Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Reconstruction In Progress

Well I have decided to stop blogging for a little while. I will be back later. Everything is okay I just need to stay focused and accomplish some goals over the next couple of months. Not sure how long I will be off of here. See you.

Monday, June 27, 2011


Not sure if this belly fat diet is going to work for me. I am definitely okay with monitoring the amount of carbs and sugars I eat but sticking to the recommended numbers is restricting my calories way too much.

I have been feeling really hungry and sick. I feel like I am not eating enough for the amount of working out I do. I also have to remember that I am vegan so I don't eat heavy animal protein which makes me hungry more often.

I have not been in the mood to eat heavy hearty meals with beans so I have been eating lots of veggies and they don't keep me full long enough.

I know that this diet might work for others but I don't know if the feelings I am having are because I am depriving myself of necessary calories Or if I am detoxing from sugar.

I don't really eat refined sugar except for an occasional sweet treat here and there. I do eat fruits and complex carbs but they are mostly whole foods that are healthy and much needed to refuel and repair my body.

So I am a little confused as to what is the best diet for me. I am going to keep researching what works best for me. I am definitely going to keep monitoring my carbs and sugars but I won't be so strict with them because I know my body needs different things each day depending on the activity I do.

Some days I might be more active and I will need to consume more calories. I am still learning and this is good because I am seeing what works best for me so I can help future clients too.

Like I have mentioned before this is not just about losing weight for me. I am really trying to learn how to keep this healthy lifestyle and equip myself in order to help others reach their goals.

So I am not throwing in the towel on this concept yet I am just tweaking it a little to accomodate my lifestyle. :)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

First 3 days of my belly fat diet

Okay so I had to post an update to let you know how I am doing. Counting sugars and carbs is way harder than I thought. It is not hard to calculate them but this way of eating is very restricting.

I do feel lighter and tighter though even after just two days. I realized that everything including black beans and broccoli has sugar in them. So if you look at all your meals and total up your sugars and carbs it can add up to a lot.

Although fruit, beans, and veggies are all good healthy sugars and carbs too many of them can sabotage the results I am looking to achieve. So once again I am learning another tool in this weight loss journey.

I measured myself and will post my results after this upcoming week is over. I know it will work because I am determined to tackle this wall once and for all.

See you next week.

Oh I have also been working out really hard everyday. Today I will MAKE myself rest although I have become obessesd with working out. :)

Here is a review on the diet.

Thursday, June 23, 2011


Progress is good no matter how slow it comes. I continually remind myself that this is a journey. It is not a race or a competition. I am learning new ways to eat, how to listen to my body, what workouts work best for my body and most importantly how to make it a lifestyle.

I have not seen the scale move too much since I started weight training but I see lots of changes. I went shopping for some shorts and tops yesterday and actually was happy with how the clothes fit.

I don't usually show my arms because I have always been so self conscious. But yesterday I bought two sleeveless tops and wore them in public. My arms are not exactly how I want them yet but I am okay with them. But the most important thing to note is that I am more confident in myself regardless of where I am in my journey.

Learning to love and accept my body has been a looooong journey but I am doing so much better. Loving your body is not just about being a perfect 10. It is about learning to love your body for what it does for you. It is a miracle. It is also beautiful to be feminine and have curves. Healthy curves.

I weighed myself yesterday morning and was happy to see that I lost .5 lb. Not much but I have broken through another wall. I just have to take each 10 lb goal and celebrate it. It is a step at a time. If I look at the big goal I might get discouraged but if I see 10 lbs. it doesn't seem so far or intimidating.

My daughter has been on this journey too. She hasn't wanted to workout much but she is eating very well and has managed to lose 2.5 lbs so far. I am proud of her so far. She has 12.5 lbs left to reach her goal. I know that with atleast 3 workouts a week she will be sure to reach that goal by the end of her summer vacation.

My biggest concern and problem area has always been my abs. I have had this issue since I gave birth to my daughter. My abs are really really out of shape. I have lots belly fat and I hate it. I have stronger ab muscles but I still have a lot of belly fat to shed from them.

I know that it has alot to do with my diet and not my physical activity. I have lost lots of belly fat but still have a long ways to go to get the abs I desire to have. So today I ran across a book at Target that talked about belly fat. I think it is called the belly fat diet.

I couldn't put it down. I didn't buy it but I read enough to know what I needed to do. Belly fat according to the book has a lot to do with the amount of sugar and carbs you eat. They recommend you eat no more than 15 grams of sugar a day and 6 servings of carbs.

I am eating wayyyyy more than that which explains my never ending battle with the stubborn belly bulge. I am going to try out this method and post my results after one week. They say I will lose 4-9 lbs per week following these strict numbers.

They determine the carb servings by the grams. For example: 5 to 20 grams is 1 serving, 21 to 40 grams is 2 servings, 41 to 60 grams is 3 servings. Anything under 5 grams does not count.

So I began to read the labels of some of my favorite foods I eat and realized I eat way too much sugar and carbs. Although they are healthy carbs I still eat too many. So I will restructure my diet this week and see what happens.

Let me know what you think. :0)

Friday, June 17, 2011

Putting in work

Yesterday I had an amazing workout. I went to workout at the gym in my old apartments. My mom still lives there so I have the key and use the facility when I want.

This is what I did:
20 min stairmaster
circuit training (using resistance bands I worked my back, chest and glutes)
Abs (plank, side planks, mountain climbers and oblique twists)
15 min Elliptical (intervals)
35 minutes on the treadmill (I walked for 10 minutes at a 15% incline, 10 min at 10% incline backwards, did sprints for 10 minutes and then cooled down)

I love having the time and energy to workout like this. I look forward to doing more of these workouts.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Suffering through headaches

It has been extremely hot the last couple of days. Today it reached a staggering 106 degrees. It was hot enough to take my breath away and give me a really bad headache. My headache started yesterday but it was only 97 degrees.

I think this is why I am getting these headaches. I am trying to stay well hydrated but something is going on and I don't like it.

Monday, I forgot what workout I did.

Tuesday, I did not workout because I had a very very bad headache. I did do some walking outside in the heat while at work. Phew it was a hard day.

Wednesday, I did 30 minutes of sprints and interval training on the treadmill.

This is what I ate today:
Breakfast: 2 mini (palm size) pancakes topped with 1 tsp PB, sliced strawberries and bananas
I made this batter from rolled oats, brown rice farina, flaxseed, cinnamon, whole wheat flour, baking soda, baking powder, applesauce and water.
Lunch (postwork): brown rice w/ lentils and salsa
Snack: lentil wrap, tiny bite of a mexican cookie
Dinner: salad w/ lemon juice, 1 cup of split pea soup, 1 brownie, 1 cup of coffee (at Sweet Tomatoes)
Snack: 1 corn tortilla w/ avocado and salsa
Lots and lots of water all day.

While at the gym today I met this nice guy who is a personal trainer. He is also into holistic remedies and nutrition. He is not vegan but he was very helpful with some of the information he gave me.

His friend (roommate) is also a trainer and specializes in kick boxing, which I LOVE! He gave me his number and said anytime I am at the gym and he is there he will workout with me.

We talked about me reaching my goals and he said he knows I can do it. He was excited to know I have lost a total of 70 lbs so far. He too has lost a large amount of weight and healed his body of arthritis, high blood pressure and diabetes.

I have been thinking a lot about my goals. I am very determined to learn all that I can and make the changes needed in order to achieve them. My challenge has been learning how to be on a plant based diet and have enough energy to be athletic, lose weight and gain muscle.

I don't personally know any people that live this lifestyle so I decided to order a book called "Vegan Bodybuilding and Fitness" by Robert Cheeke. He is a bodybuilder and lives off of a plant based diet. I figure he can help shed some light in these dark areas for me.

I am excited to start reading and take my body to the next level. I have been learning and understanding a lot more about fitness and nutrition lately. Things are really sinking into my head and I am happy to apply this way of thinking to my life.

I have shared my beliefs about visualization and I just read the science behind it. It actually does work. They say that visualizing something in your brain sends signals to your muscles, which can actually have the same effect as physically working the muscle.

I know visualization played a HUGE role in my success of running the marathon. So I know it will help me in further transforming my body and life. Stay tuned because it's about to get really good. :)

My two little projects

My daughter's summer break officially started last friday. She has set a goal to shed some unwanted pounds over her summer vacation. Her little friend also wants to accomplish the same goal. I have taken on the task of helping them both fulfill this goal.

Although I know they do both need to lose a little bit of weight. I didn't want them to only focus on the superficial part of this journey. I sat down and talked to them about being healthy and how this weight loss with benefit them.

I am also teaching them how to visualize their success, read labels, log their food and activity, and make healthier food choices.

The plan is to have my daughters friend come over three days a week and spend the night so she can eat healthy and exercise with us. This week was our first workout session and they did wonderful.

Let me just say that they are extremely exhausted. They have put themselves to slept the last two nights by 11pm. This is unusual during summer break.

Tuesday night I took them to the gym and they ran on the treadmill for 20 min. I had them do a warm up, sprints and interval training. Then they did planks and other ab exercises. After a nice stretch they did 10 laps in the pool and then had fun playing in the water for about 1 hr.

This morning (Wednesday) they hit the gym again. They were very sore so I didn't make it so hard for them. They still worked out harder than they are used too but not as hard as yesterday. They did the stationary bike for 20 minutes at level 3 and the elliptical for 15 minutes. Then later in the evening they went swimming again for 1 1/2 hrs.

They are currently knocked out in bed. :)

I am so happy to be able to help them achieve their goals this summer. I have encouraged them to blog their journey so I will set up a link once they get it started. :)

Friday, June 10, 2011

Last weeks activities

I have managed to workout everyday this week except for Thursday. I was extremely tired and took a long nap. My body has been very sore so I thought it was a good idea to give it a break.

Here is what I have done so far this week:

Monday: Power 90 Legs

Tuesday: Power 90 Back and Biceps (15 lb weights)

Wednesday: Insanity Cardio Core and Balance (35 min)/ Zumba (35 min)

Thursday: Rest day

Friday: 15 min treadmill (1 mile run w/ incline), 5 min stairmaster, 3 sets of mountain climbers 25 reps, 1 set of incline pushups 20 reps, 3 sets of leg lifts for my bootie :), 1 set of obliques

Saturday: Bicep curls and tricep extensions using resistance bands (3 sets of 25 reps), abs

Sunday: Supreme 90 Ultimate Ball DVD (lots of core and ab work)

Since it has been really hot lately I have not been in the mood to cook or eat hot food. I have been eating a lot of wraps lately. I made one in whole wheat lavash bread w/ tomato basil hummus, roasted eggplant, roasted red peppers, fresh spinach, salsa, and broccoli slaw. It was super yummy.

I plan on stocking up on lots of salad fixings and fruit. That is what I refer to eat when it is hot outside.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Not much time

I find it really hard to log my food on here but I have to stay accountable and log it some how so I will start a notebook. I have to look at a daily journal of my food so I am aware of what I am doing.

I don't have lots of extra time right now and the time I do have I am either cleaning, spending time with my daughter or relaxing. I don't log in much to the computer. I don't remember everything I eat but I do remember my workouts so I will still log them here.

I still like to log my activity and thoughts on this blog because it is a good motivation for me. I like to see how much I have grown and changed over the last couple of years.

Here is my activity:
Thursday- Insanity Max Cardio Recovery
Friday- Nothing. I was not feeling well so I just took it easy after work and let my body recover.
Saturday- Supreme 90 DVD Arms and shoulder. This is a strength training workout that requires a stability ball and dumbells. I used 15 and 10 lb weights. This DVD also includes abs.

I have noticed that the Insanity DVD's really take a toll on my knees, particularly my right knee. So I am not doing them everyday. I do them on my days off and work on strength training the other days. I am working both programs the best I can.

I have noticed my arms are sculpting up pretty nice and my legs are getting lots of new mucle. I am excited to see how this works out for me. I know that 80% of my results will come from clean eating though and I must admit I haven't been sticking to it very well.

I don't eat bad I just eat too much. I have been really hungry and thirsty lately. It might be from the lean muscle I am gaining. Not sure but I have recruited some help with my diet. I will fill you in later.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Working it out

Monday, our office was closed for the holiday so I had the day off. Yay! I invited my BFF and her 2 kids over for lunch. I made mini sliders, mac n cheese, pasta salad and tater tots. For dessert I made chocolate pudding with fresh sliced strawberries.

I spent a majority of the moring cleaning up preparing for our company to come over so I didn't have time for a full workout. I did do a small circuit but it really got my blood pumping and my sweat dripping.

Here is what I did:

3 sets of bicep curls (12 reps, 20 lb weights)
3 sets of tricep extensions (12 reps, 20 lbs)
3 sets of push ups (20 reps)
3 sets of weighted squats (25 reps, 20 lbs)

Then after lunch we went to an outdoor mall to enjoy the nice weather. I walked about 2 miles.

Tuesday, I didn't workout. I wasn't feeling energetic. I was very tired from the heat and work I did during the day. I had to check our vacant apartments which required me to climb stairs and it was kind of hot outside. I was so thirsty I could hardly swallow. I drank 2 large bottles of water when I got back to the office.

Wednesday, I did my Insanity Max Cardio Conditioning DVD and Cardio Abs. Oh how I love working my abs with this DVD. I almost hurt my knee really bad during the cardio part of the DVD but thank God I didn't. I felt my knee pop a little and I got scared so I made an effort to take it slow with the jumps.

What I ate today:
Breakfast: large bowl of watermelon, 1 corn tortilla with two meatless meatballs and spinach
Post workout: 1/4 c black beans, 4 meatless meatballs (at my MIL house, that is the healthiest thing she had in the kitchen)
Lunch: Veggie lasagna
soy ice cream cone (220 calories)
Dinner: Ceasar salad w/ asparagus and a few baked tortilla strips, 1/2 cup brown rice

I made an awesome Ceasar salad dressing today. My daughter loves Ceasar salad and we thought we would never eat it again since the dressing contains so many non vegan ingredients. The scary thing is that many people love Ceasar salad and the dressing is extremely unhealthy it is one of the most fattening and unhealthy salads.

So making a delicious homemade version today really made us happy. My daughter almost started crying. I got the recipe from a Vegan cookbook I bought but altered some of the ingredients to make it healthier. I substitued the olive oil for oil free veggie broth.

Traditional Ceasar dressing contains 1240.8 calories, 2533.3 mg of sodium and only 2.82 g of protein in one cup. The healthier cleaner vegan version I made today has approximately 202.50 calories, 1065 mg of sodium and 22.5 g of protein in 2 CUPS.

You might think that means it is not that tastey but my daughter proved that wrong while she ate two large helpings of Ceasar salad for dinner. I have to say that I was proud to feed her this healthier version of her favorite salad. I was super happy.

Learning to love myself

I felt the need to elaborate a little on a comment I made on my last post. I stated that it made me sad how woman are so critical of themselves and other women.

I agree that we must be a little critical of ourselves so that we don't become complacent when we have goals and want to achieve more in life. The problem is when we only focus on the superficial part of ourselves.

Many of us build up our lives and develop our self esteem or sense of worth on a superficial level. We are only caught up in the illusion of what we think we are. We only see the outward appearance of things and that can be devastating to a woman's self esteem.

Society paints a picture of beauty being an ideal body type and flawless skin. Many of us struggle trying to live up to this standard of beauty. Many women and young girls are dying from eating disorders and deadly addictions due to the pressures of the world.

We have gotten so far away from the essence of our Being. We have become so detached from the reality of who we are and who we were created to be. Women are often portrayed as the weaker vessel. We are even degraded and disrespected by the media.

Not only does the outside world take a stab at us but our family lives often do as well. I can remember being a little girl and feeling self conscious because I was called gordies (little fat one). I was not a skinny little girl. I was also teased at school because I had a large chest. I was already a C cup in 6th grade.

I also remember thinking I wasn't worthy of love when my dad and mom neglected me. Then my husband committed adultery and that just did me in. I was reduced to a small pile of crap on the floor. I was not secure or confident in myself and full of fear.

I felt weak and helpless as my life began to spin out of control. How could I stand up and continue to live when everything I had defined myself by was stripped away little by little?

I struggled to gain my self esteem back by fixing everything external but time and time again I failed. I was still left feeling empty and lost inside.

This feeling of emptiness and pain is what caused me to reach 245lbs. As I continued to bury my emotions with food I didn't even recognized myself anymore. I was disappointed in what I had allowed myself to become and I didn't want to feel helpless anymore......

And so my journey began.

I began to truly understand who I was at the depth of my being. I wasn't just this external shell that changed with age and seasons. I was a limitless spirit. I was a strong, powerful and beautiful woman that deserve to be loved. I yearned to be loved.......I yearned to LOVE MYSELF.

I didn't learn to love and accept myself until I started to learn who I was beneath the layers of fear, pain and rejection. I realized I wasn't what everyone wanted me to be. I was what GOD created me to be and that was worth loving, respecting and reverencing.

This is why I made the comment I made because I see the other side of superficial expectations. I had them and they left me empty.

Does that mean I don't want to fix the external? Of course not. I want to achieve the strong sculpted body I envision myself to have.....BUT...I know I am more than that body. The achievement of reaching that goal is only a manifestation of an internal discipline.

It says to me "you have conquered your mind"...... "you have defeated the mindless jumble that torments your thoughts". You have overcome.

Eating healthy, making time for exercise, meditating, allowing my spirit to express itself and getting adequate sleep is how I chose to reverence this TEMPLE God has given me.

I often feel women are critical of other women for the same reason. They are insecure of themselves and so they reflect those insecurities on others by pointing out their "imperfections". This criticism is often caused by jealousy and envy which is a manifestation of fear and low self esteem.

Once again if we realized who we were at the core of our being we wouldn't see others imperfections. We would be confident in our true self and only see perfection. What God makes is perfect.

Let us learn to love ourselves. Not just love what we see but love who we truly are beyond the reflection in the mirror.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Learning new things

So I am learning lots of new information that I never knew or even thought about before. Since I have been reading a lot of fitness magazines and my study course I have gained some knowledge that I know has been helpful in my transformation.

Although it seems like common sense I never thought about this:

-You can be skinny fat. You can be thin in appearance or on the scale but still be all fat. Focusing on cardio or harsh diets can contribute to this. That is why a combination of cardio, strength training and clean eating is the only way to go.

-Many women only focus on cardio and although it burns fat it doesn't have a lasting affect like strength training does. The more lean muscle mass you have on your body the more calories and fat you burn through even while your body is at rest.

-Muscle is not built when lifting weights. It is built during recovery. Lifting weights actually tears the muscle down. That is why recovery is such an important part of training. Over training can sabotage your goals.

-The food we eat helps our body recover and transforms our body. The right combination of foods helps feed our muscles, brains and organs. So learning about PROPER nutrition is imperative if you want to live a healthy and strong life.

-Our hormones play such an intricate part of our overall health. The slightest nutritional deficiency can wreck havoc on our bodies. Proper nutrition and exercise can help regulate them.

-Sleep and proper hydration should not be underestimated.
Less than 4 hrs of sleep can send your body into a prediabetic state.
Hydration makes sure your body and organs are functioning properly. Not being properly hydrated can cause constipation, flu like symptoms and many other issues. Water helps remove toxins from your body and helps regulate body temperature.

Thursday, May 26, 2011


Monday- Insanity Max Cardio Conditioning

Tuesday- Insanity Interval Plyo

Wednesday- (AM) Insanity Max Interval Plyo (PM) Power 90 Back and Bi's (20lb weights)

Thursday- Insanity Max Recovery

Friday- pushups and abs

Saturday- Supreme 90 Whole Body resistance training DVD using 20 lb dumb bells

I got my workout done in the morning before work which was awesome. After work I went to dinner with my best friend, her daughter and my daughter. I enjoyed some veggie pasta and a white peach mojito. It was nice getting out and spending time with our special friends. We went out to celebrate our daughter's "friendiversay". They have been best friends for 12 yrs and we like to make a big about it. They exchange gifts and get to choose where they want to go. I made them each a scrap book with pictures of them together since they were babies. It was very special. :)

Sunday- Rest Day

It makes me sad to think about how critical women are on themselves and others. We often fail to realize how beautiful and powerful we are beyond the superficial.

We are more than a body. We are mothers, wives, sisters, daughters and beyond the roles we play in life we are spiritual beings. Let us not forget that. Let us honor it, respect it and reverence it.

This week I did meditate as I had planned. I didn't do it for as long as I wanted to but I did achieve what I wanted to accomplish. I wanted to have control of my mind which in turn causes me to be in control of my body and the choices I make.

I visualized my body the way I want it to be and this helped motivate me and inspire me to keep pursuing my goals with more determination. I am closer than I know. It will just take more discipline to reach my destination but I will do it because I KNOW I CAN DO IT!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

30 Day Challenge

I have created a 30 day challenge for myself. I am going to stick to a very strict eating plan and workout schedule. It also includes 15 minutes of meditation in the morning and 15 minutes at night. As well as 8 hours of sleep per night and 1 full recovery day.

I don't want to post it on here right now but I will do my best to update you after the first week. I always have good intentions to commit to a plan and then I don't stick to it because things happen or I just give up.

I am trying to break that habit and I WILL commit to this challenge. I will stay positive and focus only on success. I can't look back at what I used to do or my failures. I must look forward and just push through this challenge with determination.

See you after week one. :)

Friday, May 20, 2011

Muscle Fatigue

Today I did the Insanity Max Interval Training DVD. I really tried to push myself but my muscles were exhausted. My arm gave out when I was doing "side suicides" and I almost did a face plant into the carpet.....LOL! I didn't give up though I kept pushing and took small breaks when I needed to.

This is a very challenging DVD because each interval last 3 minutes and the recovery is only 30 seconds. It really pushes you to the max. I am definitely EXHAUSTED but I am happy that I finished my workout strong. The DVD last 1 hr which includes an intense warm up, pre workout stretch and cool down stretch.

I have to admit I did A LOT of grunting, yelling and cursing. I also had to encourage myself along the way. I would say "come on girl.....push can do it". I am my own little personal trainer. :)

So today was a so so day for eating. I did eat well but I also had some not so clean food.

Here is what I ate:
Breakfast: protein shake (water, protein powder, 1/2 banana, frozen strawberries, 1 tsp of ground flaxseed)
Snack: raw almonds and raisins
Lunch: pinto beans and romaine lettuce with salsa in a brown rice tortilla, broccoli w/ Bragg's
Snack: 5 almonds
Dinner- 1 cup mac n cheese w/ broccoli (brown rice pasta, cheezy sauce made with soy milk and nutritional yeast)
Naughty food: salt and vinegar kettle chips (1/2 cup)
Naughty food: 2 homemade chocolate chip cookies (whole wheat flour, apple sauce, banana, baking soda, baking powder, vegan chocolate chips)
Post workout: protein powder (same as breakfast minus the flaxseed), 1 piece Ezekiel bread w/ tiny smear of PB&J
I did not want to eat anything but I needed to replenish my body after my hard workout. I also started to feel nauseous so I had to put something in my body. :)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

My cousin

Check out this video of my cousin. She once weighed 180 lbs and now she is competing in bikini fitness competitions. She is proof that hard work and dedication definitely pay off BIG!

Eating clean and weight training can transform your body.

Thursday.....Much needed recovery

Today I did the Insanity Max Recovery DVD and it felt so great to stretch and do some strength training moves. This DVD pushes you and makes you experience muscle fatigue. That is a good thing because the muscle breaks down and then rebuilds bigger and stronger than it was.

My legs sure did take a beating today. I also did lots of high to low plank moves which worked my chest, back and core. For those of you who don't know what this move is I will explain. So you start off in a high plank. That is where your in a push up position with your toes and hands on the ground while your core is contracted and your body is parallel with the floor. A low plank is the same thing but you are now on your forearms and toes.

The high to low plank is when you go from the high plank and then drop down to the low plank one arm at a time while maintaining your body parallel with the floor. Then you push back up one arm at a time onto your hands (push up position).

In this DVD we started with the right side first which means we pushed up with the right hand to get us into the high plank position. We started of by doing 4 and then resting for 10 seconds in child's pose. Then we did 8 and rested for 10 seconds. Next we did 16 and rested for 10 seconds. Then when your body is already screaming for mercy we did the left side. Set of 16, 8, and then 4.

I used to do these from my knees. So my high plank was actually a girlie push up position but today I stuck the whole thing out in full high plank position without dropping to my knees. I did have to stop a few times because my upper body was exhausted but I did 98% of the circuit. I was so amazed at my determination and strength. :) Yay for me!!!!!!

So today was a great workout and a good eating day. Here is what I did:

Pre-workout meal: 2 slices of Ezekiel bread w/ 1 tsp PB, 3 sliced strawberries and a few slices of banana
Post-workout snack: handful of trail mix (nuts, seeds, raisins and cranberries)
Meal #2: enchiladas, asparagus. 1 homemade cookie, hot cup of green tea
Meal #3: 1 1/2 c. broccoli, 1 sliced tomato w/ lemon, pinto beans, 1/2 brown rice tortilla, 1/4 c Spanish rice
Snack: 1 tiny piece of garlic bread w/ tomato paste and veggie cheese

A.M. : Insanity Max Recovery DVD
P.M. : bicep curls, tricep extensions and shoulders with resistance bands (several sets and reps alternating positions......hammer curls, wide curls...etc.)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Tired but feeling good

I have worked out hard this week. I did weight training all last week. Today I finally got back to my Insanity workout. I picked up where I left off the last week I was doing it. Remember I had to stop for a little while because my MIL got sick and I didn't want to disturb her while she was recovering at home. I do my Insanity workouts at her house because I live in an upstairs apartment and don't want to upset the lady downstairs with my jumping.

Today's workout was awesome. I don't know if I am just more conditioned now or what but they are not as hard as they were the first phase. They are still challenging but I can definitely see how much stronger I have become. I can do more push ups, jumps and endurance training without feeling like I am going to completely die. :)

I still have to modify some moves and take small little rests to catch my breath and regroup but overall I am doing awesome and I am proud of myself.

Here is what I have done so far this week:
Saturday: (supreme 90 DVD) Core using weights (core: abs, back and glutes)

Sunday: (supreme 90 DVD) Arms and shoulder using 15 lb dumbbells

Monday: (supreme 90 DVD) Legs, Back and Biceps using 15 lb and 10 lb dumbbells. I did two workouts each lasting 30 minutes. I was so exhausted and I felt extremely sore the next day.

Tuesday: I was very sore and decided to just rest since I had planned on starting Insanity again.
I did do some walking and stair climbing at work. I also had a small headache due to the high winds. I guess it was allergies.

I have to confess that I ate a Heath candy bar on Tuesday. I used to eat these all the time because I love toffee. So let me just say I got sooooooo sick. My body is not used to this crap anymore and I completely pay a hefty price when I eat it. I will not ever ever ever do it again. My daughter also bought a candy and realized that her mouth started to feel funny so she threw it away.

I think it is so crazy how our bodies talk to us and let us know when something is not agreeable. I am listening and I will obey...LOL!

Wednesday: Insanity Max Cardio Conditioning DVD
Meal #1: 2 slices of Ezekiel cinnamon raisin toast w/ PB and Jelly, glass of almond milk
Snack: 1/2 apple
Meal #2: quinoa w/ veggie stir fry
Snack: a few vinegar potato chips (not clean), veggie wrap
Meal #3: 4 meatless meatballs, broccoli and asparagus w/ Braggs Amino Acids
Meal #4: 2 vegan enchiladas, 1/2 c Spanish rice
Dessert: 3 homemade cookies

Sunday, May 15, 2011

May Question - Robert Kennedy's Oxygen Women's Fitness

I thought this question was worth sharing with you.

May Question - Robert Kennedy's Oxygen Women's Fitness

Inches lost

I am not good about tracking my inches. I have good intentions but I haven't been diligent about doing it. I like to take pics and document my progress that way. Sometimes I take pics and don't download them on here but I look at them in private. They help keep me going when I see how I don't want to look anymore and when I see the progress I have made.

I also measure my progress by the way my clothes and body feels. As of today my clothes are feeling a lot looser and my body feels tighter and leaner. I am definitely still far from my goal but I am closer than I was months ago.

I am also learning so much about health and fitness that it gives me the inspiration to make changes and keep going. I am the kind of person that wants to know "why". If I am told I must eat protein with carbs I want to know why? How does it affect my body? Since I am learning about that right now I am very intrigued and I see that it is working.

Last night I measured myself just out of curiosity and I noticed I have lost 8 inches in my hips, 7 inches in my waist, and 8 inches around my chest. I am not sure when the last time I measured myself was exactly but I do remember my measurements. I don't remember my arms or legs because I am not really concerned about them as much as my hips, waist and chest. But I was pretty proud and surprised to see the loss I have achieved.

So I will continue along my journey and document my progress when I can. Thanks for reading and following me.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Lots of Pics to Share

I took all these pics in the hopes to add them to my daily blogs so you could see what I eat but I haven't had time to load them. I finally loaded them today and thought you might like to check them out.

This food is considered my Healthy Clean Eating. I try my best to get up early and make sure that my food is preped for the day or I prepare it on my days off for the week. It has worked out well. I have managed to lose more than 4lbs since I started eating clean about 3 weeks ago.

I still have a few not so clean things here and there but atleast 80 percent of my diet is clean.

Breakfast Burrito: tofu scramble w/ chorizo seasoning, spinach, hot sauce and avocado in a brown rice tortilla.

Veggie salad

Here was the food I preped for my day at work. I made a nice hearty salad w/ veggies, black beans and topped it with lemon and salsa. My snacks were celery with PB and raisins and veggies w/ lentil spread

Here is my pantry after my clean eating shopping spree. As you can see I don't buy many processed foods. I do like to keep canned beans, apple sauce, nuts, protein powder, and veggie broth handy all the time.

Here is my fridge. I bought lots of fresh fruits and veggies.

Another meal I ate was just some raw peppers (red and yellow), broccoli, black beans and salsa.

Brown rice and lentil salad. I prepared enough for the week. This is a great combo of protein, complex carbs and raw veggies.

Quick and healthy breakfast. Ezekiel bread w/ PB (no sugar, no salt), sliced banana and strawberries.

Another version: Ezekiel bread, PB and sliced apples w/ ground flax seed.

As embarrasing as these pics might be for me I think it is important to track and share them. After the marathon I gained some weight back (about 10lbs). I decided about 2 months ago to start the Insanity program. These pics were taken before I started and after my first phase of Insanity was done. I did not stick to a clean diet and had some sweet treats here and there and ate too many calories sometimes. BUT overall I am happy with the results this far.

Here are my before and after pics.

Before Insanity (side view 1)

Side view 2

Before: front view

Now: Side view

Now: front view Thanks for checking out my pics. :)

Another pound lost

I have been eating really good lately and doing weight training all this week. I weighed myself the other day and I was happy to see I lost another pound.

I have been thinking a lot about the goals I have and I am trying to learn more about fitness so that I can accomplish my goals. I decided to not run the marathon this year for a couple of reasons.

First, I am not really that passionate or motivated to do it. I guess since I already fulfilled that goal once and I know I can do it I am not challenged to do it again. That is just how I feel right now. Things might change later.

Another reason is because too much cardio causes me to lose muscle mass. It takes more energy to sustain muscle so when you are doing lots of endurance training your lean muscle mass can be compromised.

The last reason is because it takes a great amount of time and energy and I don't really have the time for it. It also takes a great toll on my body and I don't want to go through that right now.

I have to be motivated and inspired to take on this challenge and I really am not. I am more determined and inspired to keep studying for my personal training certification and also learn more about my body.

I want to sculpt my body with weight training because I know that is the only way it will change the way I want it to. Lots of cardio only makes you a smaller version of what you already are. Weight training redefines you and creates the body you want by sculpting the muscle.

Eating well is another aspect I am continually working on. Being vegan has it's advantages and disadvantages. They are not really disadvantages as far as health goes. It is more about learning what and how much to eat to sustain my energy and retain lean muscle.

Because of the large amount of veggies and fruit I eat I tend to burn through them a lot faster which causes me to be hungry more. I am also very hungry when I weight train because the muscle is burning through my food and fat. That is good but it makes me hungry more often. I also feel nauseous and weak at times and I don't like it. I kind of feel like me sugar drops.

So I am trying to learn about proper nutrition not only for myself but for my future clients. Knowledge is power and I want it...LOL! I want to be able to feel and look healthy and to be able to help others reach their goals as well.

I read an article today that made me look at my journey a little different. I think I need to start thinking more like a man..LOL! What I mean is that I need to not worry so much about the scale and just focus on my body composition.

Men don't worry so much about their weight. They think about gaining muscle and muscle burns fat. So the more lean muscle I have on my body the better I will look. So that is my focus from now on. I am not going to get back on the scale for another month.

It is really hard at times because we want to measure our progress on the scale but it can become discouraging at times. If you are just dieting then the scale can help but if you are working out and weight training it can be deceiving. Lean muscle will weight more than fat but it takes up less space on the body. So you can be shrinking although the scale is not reflecting that.

So my focus has changed. I will think like a man for the time being...LOL! I know it might sound crazy but that is what I am going to do. ;)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Getting refocused

Well I am back but not on the schedule I would like to be on. I have been EXTREMELY exhausted. I know it has to do with my lack of sleep last week and all the emotional stress I went through.

I have not been able to do the Insanity videos because my MIL went back into the hospital the other day and just got back out last night. I don't want to bother her this week while she is at home recovering so I won't be able to do Insanity until the following week.

I have decided to do some low impact DVD's I have at home until I can return to my normal Insanity schedule.

I have managed to eat very well and my clothes are fitting loose. My mother in law commented on how I need new clothes. I said "not yet". I know I will lose more over the next couple of months so I don't want to spend money until I have lost at least another pant size.

My hips are REALLY slimming down a lot. My tummy is going down but not as fast as I would like. I did hear that it's the last part to shed fat. I don't do many isolated abs exercises although many of the moves in the Insanity DVD's do target the abs. I am going to try to focus on my abs more at least 3 times a week. I am going to incorporate weighted crunches and hula hooping to help tone up my abs.

Here is what I have done this far:

Monday- bicep curls (3 sets of 15) and tricep extensions (3 sets of 25) using resistance bands. weighted crunches using dumb bell./ 10 minutes of hula hooping
Tuesday- 20 pushups/ 100 crunches
Wednesday- whole body weight training DVD (supreme 90), 20 minute Turbo Jam DVD (moderate intensity cardio)

What I ate today:
pre workout: protein shake (protein powder, frozen strawberries and mango, 1/2 banana)
Post workout snack: 1 small apple and 1 tsp peanut butter
Lunch: brown rice tortilla w/ mashed pinto beans, raw greens, pico de gallo, hot sauce, a few sliced black olives. a few baked rice chips. small piece of homemade carrot bread
Snack: orange, a few more chips w/ mashed pinto beans
Dinner: (one small salad plate) 1 cup quinoa pasta, spaghetti sauce (Italian diced tomatoes w/ zucchini, garlic and meat substitute)
Snack: (I get really hungry when I have intense workouts) 1 slice Ezekiel bread w/ smear of PB&J, 1/2 cup smoothie (banana, cocoa powder, ice, soy milk, PB......this is my daughter's favorite)
I had a sweet tooth and ate dinner early so I wanted a small snack before it got late. The kitchen closes now at 7pm. :)

Today's workout was very intense for me because it was all weight training. I used 20 lb dumb bells so my muscles were definitely exhausted. The DVD consisted of 4 circuits which are repeated 3 times. We did move such as: squats w/ cling and press, weights squats, push ups, dead lifts, jump lunges, plyo push ups, more push ups :), jump squats, double crunch, ab hold with one arm reach thru, chest press, back row, weights lunges, and some other moves I can't remember.

After my weight training I did another DVD for some cardio. I was super exhausted already and felt a little dizzy but I did a moderate intensity 20 minute cardio DVD.

I love weight training but it definitely makes me hungry and tired. I took a long 2 1/2 hr nap today. I haven't done that in a loooooooong time. It felt great. I guess my body needed it.

See you tomorrow.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Update...wrapping up this eventful week

Friday and Saturday I was not able to workout. I was extremely tired and I had a lot of things going on.

I am happy to say that my father and MIL were both released from the hospital and are recovering at home. My MIL did not need to have surgery which was a blessing.

Saturday I ate really well during the day but at night I had a little get together at my house for my daughter's Birthday and I ate really bad.

I ate 3 small pieces of roasted veggie pizza (not bad). The bad part came when I ate some (vegan/ gluten free) cake and some kettle chips. These are not a part of my healthy clean eating plan.

Friday was also a bad night with food. I had 1 1/2 bagels and a few bites of non vegan cake. To be honest with you I think I was so exhausted emotionally and physically that I just gave in and ate bad. I am recovering from it and not letting it discourage me or get me off track.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will start over from the beginning. I will eat clean and start my Insanity phase 2 challenge over again. I missed several days of working out so today I will do a yoga DVD and lift some weights.

See you next week. Thanks for reading.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Mon/Tues/Wed/Thurs....WOW! My long blog.

Monday, I ate well and did my Insanity Max Interval Training DVD.

Tuesday, I ate well and did Insanity Max Plyo DVD

Wednesday, I ate well and was not able to workout. My mother in law got sick and a lot of things happened.

Thursday, I am super tired due to last nights events. I am eating well today and I did Insanity Max Recovery DVD.

Today I ate:

Pre workout meal: 1/2 banana, tofu scramble burrito in a brown rice tortilla (tofu, salsa, spices, spinach and 1/2 of an avocado), 1 glass of green tea, 1 large glass of water and 6 Juice+ supplements.

Post workout snack: baby carrots w/ hummus, 1/2 avocado w/ 1 tsp mango salsa, lots of water

Snack: 5 raw almonds 1 tsp raisins

Lunch: veggie soup, Larabar, 1 large glass of cold green tea, 1 large glass of water

Dinner- spicy lentil wrap w/ a little bit of tahini sauce

Dessert- 1/2 cup chocolate pudding (made with soy and almond milk)

Snack- 1/2 cup tofu scramble from this morning w/ 1 slice Ezekiel bread

This week started off really hard for me emotionally. I received a phone call Monday night that my father was sick in California and was admitted to the hospital. Tuesday he had emergency surgery and it was very scary for me. Inside I felt at peace but my mind began to wounder. I had to relax myself and rest in God. I knew that God's will would be fulfilled no matter what was going on externally. His spirit is greater and more powerful than anything we can perceive with our natural eyes.

I was determined to workout that night because it was a way to relieve my stress and prevent me from getting depressed or worried.

Wednesday, my mother in law got sick and ended up being admitted to the hospital by the end of the night. As of today it is still not determined whether or not she will have to undergo surgery for her medical issue.

Thursday, I tried to go about my daily routines as best as I could. I was soooooo tired physically and emotionally so I am glad it was my recovery day. :) It was still a very challenging DVD but it didn't require a lot of energy like the usual cardio and plyo DVDs do.

At 6pm my mother called me and informed me that my aunt had passed away. She has been brain dead for almost 2 yrs and was taken off life support almost 2 months ago. She managed to live this long without food or water. I had already made peace with her pending passing but today was kind of a somber evening after I found out she was finally gone.

The most scary thing for me but empowering part of this week was realizing how delicate our lives are. All of the issues that my family members experienced or passed away from had to do with a lack of responsibility for their health.

Some from a lack of knowledge and others just from really not thinking anything would probably ever happen to them. It kind of angers me a bit to know that the people I love had to experience these issues when I have the knowledge they need. I wish they knew what I know. I wish they respected their bodies more and understood how important it is to take care of them.

Really I feel like it is our duty to honor and respect our bodies. We only have one. We can heal our bodies but it takes a great amount of discipline and dedication to do so and I believe that many people are not willing to take it. They are more comfortable playing Russian roulette with their lives and hurting the ones they love by either dying or allowing them to see them suffer.

I will continue to press forward with my mission and passion to help empower others to live a healthy and prosperous life. This is the legacy I will leave behind and the way I chose to honor those I have lost.

Rest in Peace Tia. I will miss you.....Love Gordis (she has called me this since I was little. It means little fat one.)

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I am back and stronger than ever. Can't stop me now.

Well I am happy to say I completed and survived my first week of clean eating. I managed to lose about 3 lbs and I didn't even workout. I am excited to see what this week brings. I didn't stick 100% to my meal plan but I managed to not eat any refined sugar, pair carbs with protein and eat every 2-3 hrs when I was hungry. This ensured my metabolism was fired up. I felt great and I am so happy I am getting back to being disciplined.

I tried making a protein shake today with the protein powder I normally use and it was way to sweet for me. It is crazy how quickly your taste buds change. My daughter even noticed that bananas and raisins are too sweet for her. She is eating clean too.

This week was my first week of phase 2 of Insanity. Let me just say....I LOVE IT! I am so proud of myself because I am strong and determined to get this body at it's best. It is a tough program but I am loving it right now. I am seeing things change with my body and I can DEFINITELY see an improvement in my fitness level.

I am able to do several push ups in a row and do a lot of the exercises I struggled with at first, with more strength and power. I feel great.

I started off this week with lots of personal issues but I am determined to move forward no matter what. No time to stop and feel self pity. I have to keep moving. Exercise is my form of medicine and therapy.

I will post pictures later tonight.

Sunday, May 1, 2011


I don't have time to load my pics for friday, saturday and sunday right now but I will do it tomorrow or on my days off. I just wanted to tell you about my day today because I was a little frustrated.

So, first of all let me just start off by saying that being vegan is already a difficult lifestyle to live let alone trying to be a clean and healthy one. What I mean by clean is eating natural unprocessed foods.....foods in their natural state.

It is not hard for me to live and implement this way of eating into my life because I love it but relating to other people can be a little challenging at times. I get picked on a lot and although it doesn't bother me it can be a little irritating.

I get teased a lot at work for the way I eat. I get told that my food smells weird. How can veggies smell weird compared to fish?????

So anyways, the thing that ticked me off today is when my co-worker made the comment "you are eating again". I was like "Yes, I do eat. I don't eat like you so I have to eat more". She said "If I ate a lot I would be like this (using her hands to show having big hips)."

The reason that bothered me is because why does it matter what and how much I eat. I have to eat more to keep my metabolism going. I am the only one that works out in the office or has any kind of muscle on their body.

I am also vegan so my food is less heavy which makes me hungry more often. For snack today I had a few baby carrots and celery sticks with lentil spread. Then for lunch I had a large salad with lots of raw veggies, 1/2 cup of black beans, topped with salsa and lemon juice for my dressing. What was wrong with that?

Comments like this is what makes society think that they have to not eat or eat less in order to lose weight. I know enough about health and nutrition to know the opposite is true. Plus I am not trying to be skinny. I am on a mission to be healthy and strong. That requires me to eat way more than the average sedentary woman.

So the reason I was irritated today was because I was treated like I was a pig. I felt almost guilty eating my salad. I started to doubt my approach to weight loss but quickly snapped back into reality. I have to remember that in order to keep the fire (my metabolism) going I have to feed it. I have to keep the "logs" coming.

Thanks for listening. This was my venting blog. What do you think?

(Iris remember these are the same ladies that watch how many times I go to the bathroom and listen to how much toilet paper I use. Now they are keeping my food journal....LOL!)

I guess I am sad because I believe that people should keep their comments to themselves if they don't know what they are talking about. I have discussed nutrition with her and my other coworker when they ask. So they are aware of my beliefs but continue to eat unhealthy and both of my coworkers have high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. HELLLO?????!!!!!!!!

The person that made this comment today wears the same size as me but weighs 20 lbs less. Which means I have more lean muscle mass than her. She also buys lots of processed foods and will buy two gallons of ice cream (one for her, one for her husband) and eat the whole thing over her two days off. Oh and also eat chicharones (fried pork skins).

OHHHHH But you have to nerve to question my veggie ways.......LOL! Too funny.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Eating Clean

Today was my first day of my Eating Clean Diet. I don't like to use the word "diet" because it sounds restricted and temporary. I hope to adopt this diet or way of eating into my new healthier lifestyle.

My goal is to be commited and extremely disciplined so that I can finally shed these last 20-30 lbs I would like to lose. I have a goal to lose atleast 20 lbs by the end of August because I have plans to take a little vacation to a water park this summer. I know the way I want to look and feel so that mental picture and feeling stay in my head and keep me motivated.

I took pics of the food I ate today. Everything I ate was very delicious but the all the vinegars I used in my salad made my tummy a little upset.

Pre-workout snack: 1/2 banana, 4 walnuts, large glass of water, 4 juiceplus supplements

Post-workout meal: black bean burrito in a brown rice tortilla, green tea

Lunch: 1 1/2 cups of lentil and brown rice salad

After lunch dessert: brown rice cake w/ PB, banana and raisins, water

I worked out really hard and I was still feeling hungry.

Snack #2 (on the go): small orange and a few walnuts

Dinner: bbq tofu, sweet potato mash and corn

Sweet treat: 1 cup homemade sorbet (frozen banana, straberries and mango, water), a sprinkle of walnuts

I am learning how and when to eat. I have learned that you should never eat carbs alone. They should be paired with a protein. I do eat nuts which are high in fat but my muscles need them. I don't over do it on them. I just eat a few with my snacks which might add up to about 1/4 cup per day and 1 tsp of peanut butter.

Some of the things I am trying to do is use small salad plates instead of dinner plates and eat slower. This ensures I don't over eat. I also don't drink anything while I am eating. I drink a little bit after I am done with my food if I am thirsty. This ensures proper digestion.

Workout: Cardio Core and Balance

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Taking today off

I couldn't workout today. I was going to workout in the morning although I was very tired but I couldn't find my house keys. I finally found them after 20 minutes and by then I had to start getting ready for an appointment I had.

I was going to workout in the evening but my upper back and chest (breast area) were hurting sooooo bad. That time of the month is coming and I did a lot of push ups and plank work the last two days.

I decided to skip today's workout and resume with it tomorrow. I really didn't want to skip it but I thought it was best in order to avoid injury.

I did get a lot accomplished today. I went grocery shopping for all of my clean eating food. I have a menu prepared for the whole week and I wrote out my grocery list so today's shopping was easy and stress free. I know what I need to eat everyday and for every meal.

I also prepared some of my meals today to ensure a successful week. I made lentil and brown rice salad, lentil spread (to eat with raw veggies), a large pot of black beans (for salads and burgers), and barbecue sauce to marinate tofu.

I will post some of these yummy recipes so you can try them out if you want. I got them for the Tosca Reno's Clean Eating Diet book.

Well I will see you tomorrow. Bye.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Monday/Tuesday....Recovery Week

This week is my recovery week but I still think the workouts are pretty intense. They are definitely not INSANE but they are still challenging. This week of recovery focuses more on the core and balance.

I like the DVD because it is challenging yet easy to keep up with. I know that I better enjoy it while it lasts because next week it's about to get a whole lot of crazy. :)

I have been really good with my food. I have wanted to eat candy but I decided to throw it all away on Sunday so I wouldn't be tempted. If it's in the house soon enough it will win the battle.

We do have candy at work but I manage to avoid it because the girls at work are watching. They see when I get candy and it makes me feel accountable so I don't do it. Yesterday I grabbed a mini Mr Goodbar and said "how bad do you want this". I decided that the feeling of achieving my goals was more delicious than a tiny piece of candy so I put it back.


Here is my food journal and my workouts for the last two days.


Meal #1- protein shake (water, protein powder, banana, frozen mango and strawberries)
Mid morning snack- carrot bread (whole wheat flour, applesauce, carrots, banana)
Meal #2- broccoli w/ white kidney beans, salsa and lettuce, 1/4 c. mac n cheese
Meal #3- a few baked fries w/ ketchup and hot sauce
Post workout meal- protein shake (same as morning)
Meal #5- I was still hungry so I had a small serving of broccoli and 1/4 c. mac n cheese (I make the cheesy sauce from soy milk, garlic powder, sea salt and nutritional yeast....I pour this over quinoa pasta)

Core Cardio and Balance (Insanity DVD)
350 crunches before bed


Meal #1- protein shake (same as Monday)
Mid morning snack- brown rice cake w/ 1/2 tsp peanut butter (organic unsalted,no sugar)
Meal #2- broccoli, white kidney beans w/ salsa and lettuce
Mid afternoon snack- tiny apple w/ 1/2 tsp peanut butter
Snack- 6 baby carrots w/ hummus
Meal #3- white bean patty (beans, brown rice, squash), lettuce and salsa
Dessert- brown rice cake w/ smear of PB, topped with raisins and 3 slices of banana
Post workout meal- protein shake (water, protein, 1/2 banana, berries), 1 potato baked into fries w/ ketchup and hot sauce

Core Cardio and Balance

I managed to avoid overeating and binging on sweets so I am proud of myself. It looks like I eat a lot but I eat smalls snacks and healthy meals. I did eat lots of carbs today but it helped me get through my workout.

This next phase of my workout program requires me to eat more carbs to fuel the intense cardio workouts.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Back on the crazy train

I took an out of town vacation last week and was really tired when I got back home. I didn't work out at all but I did a lot of walking at Disneyland on Wednesday. I also did some situps, bicep curls and tricep extensions last night (sunday). I get anxiety when I don't workout.

I didn't eat badly really. I did have some chocolate covered almonds and maybe some other treats I don't normally eat but nothing really stands out as being too bad. I also indulged in some jelly beans and whopper eggs.

I am back on the train today. Last week was supposed to be my recovery week with Insanity but I am doing it this week. I watched the DVD last night to be prepared and it is not a recovery....LOL! It isn't as tough but it is still insane. :)

I am supposed to do 6 days of that DVD and then next week is my phase 2 of Insanity. I am determined to make it through eating clean so I can achieve maximum results.

SOOOOO please please please hold me accountable. I need all the help and encouragement I can get.

See you later <3

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Healthy Eating Tool

I posted this link to help some of you that might not know how to substitute some of the naughty food you are eating.

Let me know if it helps you out.

I have to be INSANE

Let me just start off by saying that I am officially INSANE. I don't know why I continue to do this workout day after day. It is so intense. To be honest I still hate doing it but I love the way I feel when I am done.

I also love the way my body is responding to this workout. I caught my reflection in the mirror the other day and was like "who is that?". I started noticing things changing with my body and I like it.

I still have areas that need lots of work...such as my abs but they are coming along too. My legs are definitely tight and my bootie is getting firmer and lifted too. I am smaller on the bottom and carry most of my wait around my stomach but things are starting to shape up nicely. My clothes are also fitting looser and that makes me feel great.

This is my 4th week of Insanity and I have managed to lose 5 lbs. Not much but I know I am gaining lots of lean muscle. So I don't want to focus on the scale instead I will go off of the way I feel and look.

I have also noticed that I get a lot hungrier I guess because I am burning more calories and have more muscle which requires more calories to sustain it. Don't know but I want to eat all the time. :)

Next week is my last week of phase 1. It is all about Core Cardio and Balance. I haven't done that DVD yet so I hope it is enjoyable because I have to do it the whole week.

After that I get to get more Insane and kick it up to the next if I wasn't doing enough already...LOL! Just as I am getting stronger with these workouts I have to get out of my comfort zone. That is good though because I don't have time to plateau. I will start seeing more results and I love it.

I am also looking into doing some kickboxing classes twice a week starting next month. I met an ex pro golden gloves boxer and he said he was willing to work with me. I can't wait. I love boxing. It is great cardio and really gets you ripped without weight training. :) It is also a great stress reliever.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Better Days

The last 4 days have been great with food and workouts. I love when everything goes as scheduled. I haven't been writing down what I eat like I want to but I am conscious of my calorie intake and have been good at only eating when I am hungry. I am learning to control my emotional eating again.

I like being in control and on schedule. I managed to lose another pound so I believe that is almost 5 lbs this far. I am proud of my progress since I decided to watch my calories and be consistent with my Insane workouts.

Here are my workouts and what I ate today (Thursday)

Monday: Insanity- Pure Cardio and abs DVD
Tuesday: Insanity- Cardio Power Resistance DVD
Wednesday: Insanity- Plyometric Cardio Circuit
Thursday: Insanity- Cardio Recovery DVD

Thursdays Food Journal

Meal #1: protein shake (water, protein powder, frozen berries, mango and banana)

Prework out meal: 1/2 spicy lentil wrap and a few potato chips (about 5) w/ tsp of guacamole

Post workout meal: asparagus, zucchini, white beans, salsa, lettuce, 1 piece of spinach flat bread

Small piece of homemade carrot cake (no sugar) w/ little bit of icing

Meal #4: 1/2 cup jasmine rice, 5 veggie meatballs w/ corn and peppers, drizzle of soyaki sauce and hot sauce

small piece of carrot cake w/ out icing


I made a yummy carrot cake from scratch last night. My daughter wanted to buy one at the store but I decided to try making one myself. A clean one. She found a mix for icing at Trader Joe's so I let her buy it so she could put icing on her cake. We didn't put it all over the cake, just on our individual pieces if we wanted it.

I used 2 cups of grated carrots, 1 1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce, 1 ripe banana, raisins, 1 tbsp vanilla, 1 tbsp cinnamon, 1 1/2 cups whole wheat flour, 1 tsp baking powder, and 1 tsp baking soda. Then I baked it for 20 minutes in a 350 degree oven.

It was super yummy. It was not a spongy cake like regular box cakes. It has the consistency of a firm bread pudding. It's not custardy but dense and moist.

The frosting was just powdered sugar and some other ingredient I can't remember. The recipe called for 4 oz of butter and 2 tbsp of hot water. I used Earth Balance of course instead of the butter. This frosting is not necessarily healthy and a clean eating staple but it's better than a lot of the other frosting on the market.

I let me daughter enjoy things like this every now and then so she doesn't feel deprived of indulgent treats. She doesn't like to have them all the time but when she does I try to give her healthier options.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Friday/ Saturday and Sunday

Friday I did okay with my food. I didn't get to do my Insanity DVD because I had to go to a bridal shower dinner after work. I did get a 2 mile fast walk in because I had to pick up my daughter from school after work.

I was actually pretty sore from that walk. It was also a nice walk. I enjoyed walking and chatting with my daughter.

Saturday I was not able to workout because I was not feeling well. I had an alcholic beverage the night before and it made me feel really sick. I didn't get drunk or anything but my body was just not happy with my choice to have that drink. I had a headache and felt nauseous. I definitely could not do my intense cardio DVD.

Sunday was my scheduled rest day and I also had a babyshower to attend after work so I didn't workout. I did walk and climb a lot of stairs at work though while checking our vacant apartments. I had to check 40 units so I got a good workout.

I ate well and didn't go overboard with anything. I am doing better at being conscious of what I am eating so I am proud.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Tedious Task

So I HATE counting calories but as a part of this INSANITY workout program they strongly encourage that you do in order to get the best results.

I know I do need to be more accountable of the calories I am eating because I tend to overeat. I don't eat bad things but I know I am eating over the right amount of calories for my body and to ensure weight loss.

I figured out the calories I should be eating daily in order to loss weight and it is a little over 1,600. So this means if I eat 5 small meals a day, each one should be around 300 calories with a little room left for a larger meal maybe for lunch.

I really don't like counting calories but I am going to go back to it and see what my results are. I actually started this today so I will post my meals and calorie intake later tonight.

The positive side of calorie counting for me is I will feel more in control and less likely to binge.

I know a lot of people don't read this blog but it helps keep me accountable so I will keep posting my progress on here.