Thursday, December 31, 2009

Detox (New Refreshed Start To A New Year)

Here is a list of the only foods I will be eating during my detox over the next 14 days. I have done this before for 9 days and was able to lose 7 lbs. and I even cheated a little. This time I am more disciplined so I am sure I will be able to stick to it without cheating. (Keep me in your prayers..LOL!)

This detox does not involved any meat or processed foods. It allows the digestive system to get some rest and of course helps eliminate toxins.

Egg whites
oatmeal (steel cut, no sugar, I like to add spiced apples to it)
brown rice, wild rice, couscous, and quinoa (cooking it in low sodium veggie or chicken broth helps add flavor without all the salt)
all veggies (except for corn and potatoes...I can eat sweet potatoes)
all fruit (except for bananas)
beans (I like pinto, black eyed peas, split peas, and garbanzos)
yogurt (soy for me since I am lactose intolerant)
Lots of water and decaffinated green tea w/ out sugar

I think I got all of the food. If I missed something I will post it later. The key is to try to eat as many organic or farm fresh produce. I will also make sure I eat every 2-3 hours. Wish me luck.

Day #92

Daily Thought: I AM BEAUTIFUL!

Food Journal:
-No breakfast. I went to volunteer at a food pantry this morning from 9:30am to 11:30am. I did not wake up early enough to eat breakfast. A protein bar would have been good for the road but I don't have any. :)
-12:30pm Lunch- a Nathan's beef hot dog w/ ketchup and mustard
-1 sample cup of coffee with raw sugar and 2 samples of cake (little tiny bitsize peices while at Fresh and Easy:)
-3 gingerbread cookies
-4:30pm Dinner- turkey meatloaf, broccoli, and stuffing.
-1 bitesize milkyway dark and a bitesize snickers
-6:00pm Dessert- ice cream sandwhich
-9:30pm some more stuffing with broccoli (after my workout)

Workout Journal:
40 min cardio circuits DVD (Banish Fat Blast Metabolism)

Final Thougths: Today is the end of 2009. I am grateful for all of the wisdom I have gained and I am definitely excited and looking forward to the New Year. I know there are many wonderful things to come. I am trusting and leaning on God and believing in every promise He has spoken to my heart.

Today is also the end of my junk food. I will be starting my detox tomorrow morning. I don't have everything I need but I will make due with what I have until Saturday. I have had enough of the sugar and processed foods. Stay tuned and I will let you know how it all goes over the next two weeks of my detox. I will make a new post with the information on my detox. Hope you have a very blessed New Years. Love you all.

Total Transformation

During my journey of total transformation I have found it essential to engage my mind, body and soul. I can not focus on one and neglect another. As I have shared before in many of my posts this journey has been a spiritual one for me. While many seek weight loss for superficial reasons I started it as a way to become more disciplined and obedient. I realized that my temple...my body was sacred because God designed it to contain His spirit.

As His child and chosen vessel it is my responsibility and resonable worship to bring my body under subjection to the spirit. I must become disciplined in the way I eat and why I eat. I must learn about my body and seek God on the best ways to take care of it.

It is easy to follow fad diets and achieve temporary weight loss but a total mind, body and soul tranformation takes much more. It requires a great amount of discipline, obedience and motivation. All of which to me come from the spirit of God.

During this journey I have attempted to do different diets and follow certain regimens that have brought others success. I have succeeded to some extent but then slowly slid back into my unhealthy habits. The reason being I only focused on one part of me.....my body.

I did not deal with the mind and the soul. I thought that if I got my body in shape then it would take care of my mind and soul. I believed that my confidience and perception would change about life if I felt better about my appearance. Little did I know that the total opposite had to take place. I had to first get the mind and soul prepared and strong before I could acheive success in the body transformation.

So lately I have been praying and seeking God for His wisdom when it comes to the foods He desires me to eat and the way I should exercise. This may seem kind of crazy to some if they have not embraced their spirituality but this is my way of life and I wouldn't change it for anything.

After all like I have said this body I am trying to transform is God's temple. He is the best at knowing what I need because He designed me. Every part of me was spoken into existance and molded by His loving hands.

It has taken me many years to get to this point in my life where I can finally look at myself without feeling disgust. I can love myself and embrace my beauty because I am learning who I am. I don't just look at my natural body I now see myself through the eyes of God. I understand that I am a called and chosen vessel. His hands have created me...His spirit dwells within me. That to me is the most beautiful thing ever in this world. I am confident in my indentity in God and that is the most liberating feeling. Nothing can ever replace it.

Glory be to God.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Day #91

Daily Thoughts: Trust in the Lord with all your heart.

Food Journal:
12:00pm Breakfast- 4 egg whites, 1 piece of whole wheat toast w/ butter, 1/2 grapefruit, 4 links of turkey sausage, a cup of hot green tea
3:00pm Lunch- sweet and sour chicken w/ rice
While at the movies I ate some nachos. Just a few chips w/ cheese sauce (nasty)
8:00pm Dinner- chicken breast salad w/ lite italian dressing (lettuce, cucumber, and 1 chicken breast), 1 buttery garlic toast, ice tea (went to Denny's...it was soooo nasty)
I munched throughout the day on some gingerbread cookies. I had ummmmm about ummmmm let me think :) maybe 8. It is 150 calories for 4 of them. I also had one hershey's kiss.
9:30pm half a turkey melt sandwhich left over from my mom's dinner :)
3 bitsize dark milky ways

Workout Journal:
Rest day
My back was in so much pain last night after my workout. The DVD makes you do a lot of planks and some pushups. My body was feeling it once I took a shower and cooled down. I did some stretching and I feel better today.

My heart rhythms were kind of funny last night too. It was a little scary but I tried to just breathe through them and not stress out so much. I have been diagnosed with an irregular heart beat but my dr has given me permission to exercise. It is not life threatening and as a matter of fact it is very common. I have just noticed that when I get them a lot I get extremely nauseated as well.

My mom and Jazzy are worried and told me to slow down with my workouts but I know I am okay. I do need to follow up with my dr. I haven't gone back to see him since my blood work almost 2 months ago. Shame on me...I know. I just hate going to the dr. I will make my appointment for sure after the holidays. Just to be on the safe side. I am supposed to get a heart monitor put on but only for 24 hrs. It might not detect anything because I don't always have these episodes on a consistant basis. Some days are worse then others. Other days I can go without them so it is pretty unpredictable. I will keep you all posted. :)

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Day #90

Daily Thought: Follow your heart.....it will always lead you to peace.

Food Journal:
12:30pm Breakfast- 2 egg whites, 1 piece of whole wheat toast w/ butter
4 mini gingerbread cookies
4:30pm Lunch- fettucine alfredo, asparagus, popcorn chicken (baked, not fried)
1 hershey's kiss, 1/2 a candy cane
9:30pm After workout- popcorn chicken, salad w/ italian dressing, green tea latte w/ soy milk and lite whipped cream (yummy:)

Workout Journal:
40 min DVD (No More Trouble Zones)

Final Thoughts:
I have been staying up pretty late with Jazzy since she is on winter break so we get up late in the morning too. I have been eating a late breakfast which also makes me eat later into the night. This will all end on Monday when Jazzy goes back to school. I am trying not to stress out about food right now. I am still trying to make the right choices and I think I have done very good. Of course I have consumed a little more sugar then I would like to but it hasn't been that bad.

After this week I want to do a week of detox and really start eating clean. That is my commitment to myself and I will do my best to fulfill it. :) It's time to refocus on my goals and motivation. I haven't stopped but I just need to regain momentum and eat clean again.

Although I have been working out that is only part of the equation. Eating clean healthy non processed foods is the best tool in combating the bulge. Cardio can only do so much if you are not eating the right foods. I am aware of that and will do my best to stick to my plan.

Monday, December 28, 2009

Day #89

Daily Thought: You don't include God in your life as an after thought....you live through Him.

Food Journal:
12:30pm Breakfast- 4 egg whites w/ cheese, spinach and hot sauce, a piece of wheat toast w/ butter, green tea latte w/ soy milk
4:30pm Lunch/Dinner- turkey chili dog w/ tater tots
6:00pm Sweet Snack- mango
9:00pm Snack- (10)almonds, 1/2 a hot dog bun w/ a spoon of chili beans, 3 crackers and a little peice of chocolate (I had some munchies after I worked out...I need to get some healthy snacks in the house:)
9:30pm hot green tea
10:30pm- turkey sandwhich on whole wheat bread, one sugar cookies

Workout Journal-
40 min DVD (Banish Fat Boost Metabolism- cardio circuits)

Final Thoughts: Although I am not counting my calories right now I am trying to be more conscious when I am eating. I used to eat too fast but now I slow down and try to allow myself to feel satisfied will I eat. This is another healthy eating habit that I am learning right now. I have not gone grocery shopping but I will be doing so this week sometime.

Today's workout was done in two parts because my brother came over with his son and interrupted my first session. I finished it after he left 5 hours later:)
It was still very intense. Some of the moves on the DVD are a little advanced for me so I do a couple and then I do a modified version through the rest of the reps.

Eventually I will be able to complete the whole workout without modifying. So far I am very proud of myself. I am my own little personal trainer. I really push myself to do what I don't think I can. Sometimes I am so tired already but I try my best to push the muscle some more. It feels good when I complete new challenging moves.

"Sometimes our mind feels defeated before when have even attempted the challenge. Press through the barriers and do what your mind can't comprehend."

Day #88 (Sunday)

Daily Thoughts: It's all for the glory of God.

Food Journal:
9:30am Breakfast- 1 piece of wheat toast w/ butter, a glass of cranberry juice
1:30pm Lunch- turkey sandwhich on whole wheat bread (turkey, lite mayo and mustard), green tea latte w/ a splash of 1% milk
4:30pm Dinner- lemon pepper chicken breast, 1 1/2 serving spoons of mashed potatoes and a 2 tbsps of mac n cheese
5:30pm 2 cups of coffee w/ sugar and a small cranberry orange scone (I normally don't drink coffee but I was soooo sleepy and needed to stay up. We had to go to church at 7pm and I knew we would be home late.....one cup did nothing so I had two)
11:30pm Snack- a handful of raw almonds, couple bites of an apple and some cranberry juice
Throughout the day I ate 2 dark chocolates and 1 sugar cookie. I also put about 2 tsps of sugar in each cup of coffee I drank.
Workout Journal:
Rest day. I am very very sore today. It felt good to rest. I am learning to balance everything including my workouts. Working out too much can be a hinderance in your weight loss journey. Giving your body time to rest is very important.

Final Thoughts: I had a great day today. I went to church this morning and received some orders to make tamales. I have to make 7 dozen for next sunday. Wow! I didn't even advertise my tamales. I took some to my two friends that ordered some and everyone started asking me to make some. I didn't know people loved tamales so much.

After church Jazzy, her little BFF and I went to my mother in laws to visit and she made us some yummy dinner. Later I had to take Jazzy to another church to perform. Her youth praise team was asked to perform at another church for a youth service. Church was wonderful. We got back home at about 11:00pm. I was a little hungry so I had to choose a healthy snack to munch on. Nuts are great to snack on. I wanted to grab a cookie or chocolate but resisted the temptation. :)

Reflections

I am feeling really great today. I feel lighter and slimmer. I am definitely not where I want to be with my physique yet but I am on my way. It feels good to be consistent and dedicated.

I have been on this weight loss journey for many years but never really dealt with the underlying issues that brought me to be overweight. My motivation was always superficial. I thought I would be more confident if I looked good. I didn't really do it for health reasons.

Now I am motivated by discipline and obedience. It is more of a spiritual journey for me. I am learning how to see myself and respect myself as God's temple. This has changed my whole perception and really set me up for a long life full of healthy habits.

I am confident that I will surely reach my goal next year. I also know that my entire life will change for the better because I have learned to be disciplined with my body, mind and soul.

Everyone may not understand my views. They may think I am a little out there but whatever path God takes me through to achieve these goals I will follow Him. I will also share them because there are some people that understand me. There are women and men that feel hopeless when it comes to weight loss. If I can be an inspiration or a source of light to them then this journey will be all worth it.

Every feeling of defeat, fear, anxiety and depression I have overcame will be so worth it if I can be a voice that brings them hope.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Day #87

Wow! I was so sore today. I also woke up with a horrible tummy ache. I was not able to keep anything in my stomach til late tonight. I don't know what made me sick. I was not throwing up or feeling sick....just had a bad tummy ache and you know what....LOL!!!

Food Journal: I woke up late and did not have any breakfast food to eat.
12:30pm- 1 cup of rice from last night and two slices of toast with butter
3:30pm- apple and almonds (about 8)
5:00pm- chai tea latte w/ soy milk
7:00pm- carne asada burrito from Fresh and Easy (about 650 calories)
Throughout the day I had 3 bitesize chocolates and 3 sugar cookies

Workout Journal:
40 minute cardio circuit training (Blast Fat Boost Metabolism)
30 minutes of Wii sport

Today's workout was sooooo intense. Yesterday's workout was more resistance training. Today was a lot of cardio circuits. I truly enjoy these HARD workouts. They might not be hard for everyone but they are hard for me. Sometimes we think we can hang because we are used to running or doing other intense cardio sessions but when you do them in an other manner or form it creates a new challenge. The way these circuits are arranged makes for a great calorie burn. I love working out really hard and feeling sore the next day. I can't even walk today without feeling my butt muscles scream at me...LOL! My abs are really sore too. Great! Great! Great!

It is important that when working out we don't just perform the workout to get it done. Jillian really stresses how you need to focus on the muscle and make strong fluid movements with intension. Don't just go through the motions. Really visualize the muscle working and your fat burning. She is a great trainer and motivator. I really enjoy and recommend these DVD's. I will be buying the "30 Day Shred" DVD in a week or so. I heard that is intense too. :)

Friday, December 25, 2009

New Challenge Schedule

This is the new schedule I have made for myself. I am ready to challenge my body and make some serious changes. Up until now I have been doing pretty well at being dedicated. These last couple of months have really been about preparing my mind and body for the challenges I will be trying to achieve in the upcoming year.

I will be giving myself two rest days to ensure my body repairs itself. This helps prevent injury, fatigue, and illness. It is important to allow your muscles time to repair after a great workout.

Here is my new workout schedule:

Monday: 1 hour of cardio (Teaching Zumba Class)
Tuesday: "No More Trouble Zones" DVD
Wednesday: "Banish Fat Boost Metabolism" DVD, and 40 min. cardio
Thursday: Rest Day
Friday: "No More Trouble Zones" DVD, and 40 min. cardio
Saturday: "Banish Fat Boost Metabolism" DVD
Sunday: Rest Day

Some of my favorite yummy clean foods I love and will be eating.

Protein: egg whites, chicken breast, lean ground turkey, tuna, hummus, deli turkey breast, and beans (garbanzo, pinto, split peas and black eyes peas)
Fruits: apples, bananas, pears, grapes, grapefruit, strawberries, nectarines, and mixed frozen berries (no sugar added)
Veggies: broccoli, baby bok choy, green beans, squash, chayote, and celery
Grains and nuts: brown rice, brown rice pasta, quinoa, and couscous, multigrain rice crackers, oatmeal, brown rice cakes, wasa crackers, and raw almonds
Dairy: soy milk, lite cheese, and soy yogurt
Beverages: green tea, and WATER....lots and lots of water.

I will try my best to not consume any refined sugar or processed foods.

I am moving into this new challenge being more body conscious. The mind, body, soul connection will be my main focus from this point. Meditation of course will continue to be my biggest tool during this journey.

Day #86 Merry Christmas

Daily Thoughts:
Today we are celebrating the birth of our savior. He was born for a purpose greater then our carnal minds can understand. He lived His entire life surrendered unto God. He dedicated His heart and will to fulfill the will of the Lord.

We too should do the same. In all that we do it should be unto God. We should surrender our understanding in order to walk in the peace of God. Always seeking His wisdom and yearning for His love.

Thank you Lord for the gift of your Son.

Food Journal:
12:00pm Breakfast- 5 egg whites, cheese, spinach, hot sauce, 1/2 grapefruit and water
3:30pm Lunch- 1 tamale and a small bowl of pozole, water (very filling)
9:00pm Dinner- 2 cups of rice with turkey meat, garbanzo beans, and hot sauce (all mixed together), green tea latte w/ soy milk
I ate 3 sugar cookies, 2 hershey's kisses and an Andes chocolate mint today. There is so much chocolate in my house right now but I am not tempted. I will try to keep them out of sight though just in case. I will even give some away to avoid the indulgences. :)
*****updated 12/26*********
I was craving some pozole and had a small serving at about 10:00pm and some crackers. I woke up this morning (12/26) with a massive tummy ache. I could not keep anything in my stomach until late tonight. I don't know what it was. Maybe I ate it too late. Or my tummy is tired of eating all that corn. I don't usually eat this kind of food on a daily basis.

Workout Journal:
OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!
40 minutes circuit training DVD "No more trouble zones" by Jillian Michaels (non-stop circuits...NO rest at all...no not even for water:)

30 minutes of Wii sport

I did my new workout DVD and boy was it a killer. I felt like I was going to puck. It was right at my throat. I know that is pretty nasty but it is the truth. It was 40minutes of INTENSE circuit training. My bootie is still screaming at me. This workout is definitely going to be my new kick in the butt I need to get my metabolism fired up and burning fat. I look forward to seeing the results after a month of doing it 3 days a week.

I will do my other tape tomorrow and alternate them with two days of rest. This is my goal and I look forward to it. It is a killer workout but so worth it when you think of the strength you can gain...mentally and physically.

Final Thoughts:
It is important to constantly challenge your body and do new things all the time. It keeps your body changing and performing at it's best. It is wonderful to start the new year with a fresh new workout routine, renewed mentality and healthy eating habits. The new year will bring lots of changes and I am so excited. :)

Day #85 (12/24) Christmas Eve

Daily Thoughts: I am feeling so blessed. The holidays bring so much warmth in my life and I am grateful for every memory this season brings.

Today my family gathered at my house to celebrate Christmas. My two brothers came. One brought his girlfriend and the other brought his doggy. My mother in law, my mom and Jazzy were also here.

This is one of the best Christmas I have had in a long time. I was so happy and we had a wonderful time. Lots of love, laughs, food and drinks :)

Food Journal:
12:00pm Breakfast- 4 eggwhites, spinach, tomato, avacado, hot sauce, cheese, 1/2 grapefruit, hot green tea latte w/ soy milk
No Lunch or snacks
6:00pm-11:00pm Dinner- I did not eat this all at one time but through out the night.
2 chicken tamales, 1 bowl of chicken pozole, 2 mini (cup cake size) cheesecakes w/ fresh strawberries and whipped cream, 2 bitsize strawberry pies, 2 sugar cookies, some chips w/ hot sauce, 2 cranberry w/ vodka drinks, 1 eggnog w/ brandy drink. Lots of water.

Workout Journal:
I played Wii sports with my daughter for about 1 1/2 hours. I was sweating playing boxing. That was a great workout and lots of fun. You don't even realize you are working out so hard because of the enjoyment. :)

Final Thoughts: I am learning to become more body conscious. I am aware of the food going into my body. I am also slowing down when I eat which helps avoid mindless eating and overeating. I feel that I get full much easier now because I allow my body and mind to connect. The brian is what tells the stomach that it is full. If you eat too fast you don't give this process time to happen and sometimes end up eating too much.

I got 2 new workout DVDs today. I wanted them so bad and got them today. I will be trying them out tomorrow. I got Jillian Michael's (trainer from the Biggest Loser) "No More Trouble Zones" Ultimate Body Makeover DVD and her "Banish Fat Boost Metabolism" DVD which claims to help you lose up to 5 lbs a week. Wow that must be a tough one. :) I will update you tomorrow on the workout. Maybe I will post a video of me trying to do it. :) That should be funny.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Day #84 (Wednesday 12/23)

Wednesday was a very busy day for me because I had to finish some Christmas shopping and exchange some stuff. I mananged to eat breakfast and a late lunch. I was up pretty late making tamales for Christmas Eve. It was my first time doing it and I was a bit nervous. After my first one I was pretty comfortable and realized it was not as hard as I thought. I did manage to work out before I left the house. My mom and Jazzy went out shopping so I was able to exercise in peace :)

Food Journal:
(11:30 am)Breakfast- 4 egg whites, spinach, cheese, avacado, tomato, hot sauce, 1/2 grapefruit and hot green tea
(5:30pm)Late Lunch- 8 inch sub sandwhich (wheat bread, turkey, provolone, veggies and sweet onion dressing)
(8:30pm) I ate the other 4 inches of my sandwhich
Started cooking and tasted some of the food to make sure the seasoning was right.
I had about 2 1/2 sugar cookies I made.....thought out the day not all at once.

Workout Journal:
20 minutes of high intensity cardio (Turbo Jam- kickboxing)
Abs (I am sore today:)

Today was a very busy day but it felt great that I got a chance to workout. I really don't want to fall off the wagon so I know that I must keep one foot on by getting some workouts in. I am glad the holidays are almost over so I can return to my routine. I have not done too bad but me being sick and now busy has put a little strain on my healthy lifestyle transformation. A couple more days and it will all be just memories. I have some great ones....:)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Day #83

Daily Thoughts: I am just so grateful for God's presence in my life. I am grateful for the awareness that has taken over my life. I am no longer consumed by my emotions but I am present in the moment. I trust that where I am is where I am supposed to be. I am learning new things, achieving new goals and reaching new levels of awareness. Words can not describe the way I feel. Only God knows my true heart and how I feel about Him.

Food Journal:
11:30am- cinnamon roll, smoothie (soy yogurt, frozen berries, soy milk, almonds)
12:30pm- 1 hashbrown patty
4:00pm- Asian grilled chicken salad, 3 boneless chicken wings and two celery sticks w/ ranch (appetizer), water w/ lemon
7:30pm 3 boneless chicken wings and 1/2 cup pasta w/ cheese sauce
8:00pm green tea latte with soy milk
10:30pm hot green tea

After Christmas I will be trying out a new approach to eating. I will still be conscious of my calories but I will not be counting them. I will pay more attention to the ingredients and how my body feels with the food. I will try to only eat those things that make me feel good and give me more energy. Bare with me during this trial period. Thanks. :)

Workout Journal:
I did a lot of walking today while Christmas shopping. I do plan on doing some cardio tomorrow. My abs are very sore from the side planks I did last night (thanks Iris.....I can't even take a deep breath)

Eat Consciously

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the way I eat. I also have been thinking about the way I track my food. I decided to make a list of all the yummy healthy foods I love and make sure I always have them in my house. I don't want to obsess over my calories anymore for awhile. I would rather like to focus on portion control and eating clean natural non processed meals.

I want to be more conscious of my body when I eat and see what foods my body enjoys consuming. If you notice sometimes after a meal you feel bloated and tired. Sometimes we even get stomach aches with certain foods. Many times we even force ourselves to eat foods that we really don't enjoy. Some of us even eat rushed which can lead to overeating and negative eating habits.

I believe that keeping an awareness of your body's reaction to food can lead to a more effective weight loss and healthier eating habits. Being present and fully aware during your meals can also help you eat less.

I also believe that the journey to a healthier lifestyle has many different roads. We can't all expect to travel the same road and achieve the same results. Our bodies metabolize food differently sometimes according to our specific body types. Allowing yourself room to learn and experiment can be very beneficial to your overall transformation.

Reading and educating yourself about proper nutrition is one of the most important tools. Don't be closed minded. It is okay to abandon previous methods and try other ones. Just be healthy. Don't try extreme methods and always consult a physician if needed.

I personally have seeked God's wisdom and guidance during this journey. I desire to find a natural and holistic approach to weight loss. I don't want to just follow a fad. I want to create habits that are healthy and that help promote a long healthy life free of disease.

I will let you know how this all works out for me. I feel good about it and I know that as long as I am aware of my body and what it needs I will be just fine.

Thank you for following me along my journey. :)

Monday, December 21, 2009

Natural Fat Burners – Negative calorie foods

Check out this article about some really yummy foods that help to burn calories. Pretty cool stuff. They are negative calorie foods. :) Can't get better then that.
Natural Fat Burners – Negative calorie foods

Day #82

Daily Thoughts: Wonderful moments with family and friends are the best gifts during the holiday season. I am having a wondeful time and feel so blessed.

I had my BFF and her children over for breakfast this morning. I made egg whites w/ cheese, hashbrowns (baked not fried), grapefruit, cinnamon rolls, turkey sausage and toast. They also stayed for lunch. I made chicken tenders and mac n cheese for the kids. I made myself some stir fry veggies.

We baked cookies with the kids and I did her little boys hair. She made snowman soup which was just a fancy name for some hot cocoa :). We had a great time doing some cooking, baking and playing games.

Food Journal:
10:00am Breakfast- 4 egg whites, cheese, hashbrown, 3 slices of avacado, 1/2 grapefruit, hot green tea, 3 turkey sausages, 1 mini cinnamon roll
4:00pm Lunch- stirfry veggies w/ soy sauce, 2 grilled chicken tenders w/ soyaki sauce
I ate about 4 sugar cookies today.
6:00pm hot green tea
9:30pm apple and 8 raw almonds, two grilled chicken breast tenders
10:30pm green tea latte w/ soy milk

Workout Journal:
I attempted to do a workout my cousin posted on her blog. I was only able to complete 1 set. This workout routine was extremely challenging for me today.
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*Iris- I did 250 high knee jumps w/ out a rope (don't have one:), and 1 hundred of the other jumps. It was very good cardio. I was so out of breathe. I did the planks on my elbow not with a full arm extension. I still felt my abs engage. The other abs I did slowly and they were confusing but I did the best I could. I will try to do this atleast 1 time a week and see how I improve. I spent over an hour on the website reading some great articles and information. Thanks for recommending the website. They share a lot of the same views I have. They confirmed a lot of the questions and thoughts I have had lately about my diet and exercise routine.
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I was dealing with a lot of very bad pain in my back that radiated into my chest below my breast. It was a very uncomfortable feeling. I also got extremely light headed and dizzy. Not sure what this was about but I tried to take it easy. Maybe it is all the sugar I have been eating...LOL! I don't know but if it continues I will go to the doctor. It might just be that my time of the month is around the corner so my body is feeling achie.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Day #81

Food Journal:
10:00am Breakfast- 3 egg whites, 2 slices of wheat bread, cheese, lite mayo
2:00pm Lunch- two soft tacos (2 corn tortillas, chicken, sour cream)
2 bite size snickers, 2 mini peppermint patties
4:00pm cheese jalapeno bread
couple of pieces of chocolate covered toffee
6:00pm 1 taco from Jack in the box
9:00pm 1 taco from Jack in the box
10:00pm 4 chicken breast strips w/ bbq sauce, 1 chocolate chip cookie

Workout Journal:
Walked around at The Magical Forest for about 2 hours. (Christmas Light Forest)


I ate some christmas treats today but in limited amounts. They were little pieces but all of it adds up. I am going to let myself eat things in moderation up until christmas. After that everything is off limits again.

I am still trying to eat good healthy meals and do some kind of activity. I was gone most of the day today so I was not really able to eat all of my meals and snacks.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Keep one foot on the wagon...LOL!

The last two days have been pretty out of the norm for my eating. I ate a lot of sugary christmas treats and drank some alcohol. It is important that when you are eating this way you try to keep the rest of your meals during the day pretty healthy.

During the holiday seasons it is sometimes hard to resist certain temptations when attending parties and celebrations. Don't completely throw your healthy lifestyle out of the window. Keep one foot on the wagon.

If you know that you are going to eat some not so good food during a party or social event make sure you eat a healthy breakfast and lunch. Don't throw the whole day out of the window. Every little bit of effort counts.

Don't totally deprive yourself when at a party either. If you want to sample some goodies just try to eat them in moderation and drink plenty of water. The water will help fill you up and flush the toxic food out.

You can still make healthy choices during the holidays and stay on track. Don't throw the towel in and say "I will start again after the holiday". You can give yourself a little wiggle room but make sure you are conscious of your actions and your caloric intake.

Try as well to stay active. Even if you can't get out to the gym try to do an exercise DVD, jump rope or jog in place. Push ups, squats and crunches can be easily done within the comfort of your own home as well. If you have stairs in your home these can serve as a wonderful tool for cardio (going up and down...either running or walking). Going up the stairs two steps at a time can be great for your bootie too.

Remember give yourself some room to enjoy the holidays but keep one foot on the wagon. You have worked too hard to stop now. Keep your mind strong and stay focused on your goals.

Happy Holidays. May your blessings be many.

Day #80 Ay Caramba!!!

Daily Thought: Enjoy life to the fullest. There is never a better time then the present.

Food Journal:
2:30am After the salsa club meal- jumbo jack w/ cheese, mini sirlion burger :)
12:00pm Breakfast- 4 egg whites (100) w/ spinach (15), cheese (40), 1/2 grapefruit, toast w/ butter (105), hot green tea (0)
2:00pm Lunch- Hotdog w/ ketchup, mustard and relish (Sam's Club)
7:00pm Dinner- small peice of chicken enchiladas, 1 tbsp macaroni salad, 1 celery stick, 2 baby carrots, 2 chicken wings (fried). (christmas party)
During christmas party- 2 mini brownies w/ icing, 2 sugar cookies w/ icing, 1 rice crispie treat
10:30pm hot green tea


Last night I went to dance salsa at a night club. I had a wonderful time. I danced for about 1 hour. It was an amazing calorie burn and lots of fun. I got most of my friends to join me on the dance floor. Except for my BFF because she had a headache. It was wayyyy passed her bed time and she was falling asleep at the table. LOLL!

I did have some drinks that do count into my calories but I am not sure how many calories they had. I had 2 cocktails of cranberry juice and vodka, 1 cosmo w/ shot of vodka and a smirnoff ice. I did pretty well considering I don't drink. Since I was out celebrating my birthday I did let loose a little and enjoy some alcoholic beverages. I knew when to stop because I did not want to get sick and I was not trying to get drunk. I drank enough to enjoy myself and make my friends laugh at me.

I went to a christmas party today and ate very bad sugary treats. I have been pretty good this week except for yesterday and today. I am done with the sugar treats for the rest of the holiday season. My face is breaking out :( TOO much sugar.

No working out today. My salsa dancing last night kind of carried itself into this morning so that counts as some cardio for today. :)

Friday, December 18, 2009

Day #79

Daily Thought: Do not focus on the things seen......stay focused on the goal. Your hardword, dedication and diligence WILL pay off. Don't get discouraged. (I am speaking to myself....and I am sure many others)

I am back to feeling a little discouraged today about my weight loss this far. The scale is not moving. I am eating well. I haven't worked out really good in about 2 weeks but I have tried to do little things here and there to stay active. The good thing is I haven't gained either so maybe I need to drop my calories a little bit. I will try that for the next week and see what happens.

I am trying to tell myself that I am changing because I am dedicated and I do see positive results in my body. The scale is not dropping but fat is definitely coming off. I just need to stay focused on the prize....my goal.

This is why journaling your food and progress is so important. It keeps you accountable, it gives you something to look at and make changes to, and it shows you where you have made progress. So many people at this point would give up but I can't. I see the progress and the total mind, body and soul transformation. I WILL keep moving forward. I just need to tweak somethings and see what happens. I will also start working out again today.

Food Journal:
9:30am Breakfast- 4 egg whites (100) w/ lite cheese (30), spinach (15) and salsa (10), 1 c oatmeal (150), 1/2 grapefruit, and hot green tea (0)
12:30pm Before workout Snack- 1/2 apple (40)
2:30pm Lunch- spaghetti w/ brown rice pasta, 1/2 grapefruit
4:00pm Snack- a bag of Sunchips (260)
7:30pm Dinner- shrimp and veggie stirfry w/ soyaki sauce (140), small sweet potato (50) w/ butter (50), 2 mini tacos

Ay Caramba Food:(
I ate lots of danish cookies today. The lady at fresh and easy had me sample cookies and gave me some to take with me. I love danish cookies (the ones in the blue tin they sell during christmas:) Yummy. This was a no no but I got it out of my system. Not sure of all the calories with these cookies.
5 danish butter cookies (171), 3 belgium cookies (?)
1 soft sugar cookie w/ icing (0)

Workout Journal:
30 minutes of kickboxing w/ weighted hand gloves (Turbo Jam)
1 hour of intense salsa dancing (went to a salsa club)

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Day #78

Daily Thought: We don't have to have a reason to celebrate. Why not just celebrate your life? Everyday we are given is a gift from God. Be grateful and your blessings will multiply.

Food Journal:
9:00am Breakfast- 2 egg whites (50), 1/2 toast (35), lite mayo (20), cheese (20) (I ate Jazzy's leftover breakfast) =125 calories
2:30pm Lunch- 1/2 pita (75), turkey (40), 1/4 avacado (60), lettuce (5), pear (80), soup (110) =370 calories
4:00pm Treat- 1 1/2 cup mint chocolate chip ice cream (?)
5:30pm Snack- 8 whole grain crackers (65)
6:00pm Dinner- 1/2 c brown rice pasta (100), 4 oz. lean turkey (170), 1/2 c pasta sauce (80) and 1 1/2 c. steamed broccoli (40) =390 calories
7:00pm green tea latte w/ soy milk (120)
Daily Total =1,070 calories
******Update 12/18***********
10:00pm Snack- 8 multigrain crackers (85), 2 tbsp hummus (50) total 135 calories
Daily Total =1,205 calories

No cardio workout
100 pushups (50 against wall/ 50 girlie pushups)
100 squats
300 crunches
******Update 12/18***********
100 leg lifts

This morning I did not make myself breakfast. I ate the leftovers from Jazzy's breakfast. After dropping Jazzy off at school I went back to sleep til about 12pm. I guess all this sleeping is helping me get better. Then I got up and got ready for my interview. My interview went very well and they forwarded my application to the actual department for a potential second interview. This position I interviewed for requires me to work a one graveyard shift. I am curious to see how that will affect my body and schedule if I get this job. (It is usually a 12am-8am or 11pm-7am shift)

I did not get any cardio in today but I am going to go salsa dancing tomorrow night. I think I will burn enough calories for the whole week. :) I am glad I am feeling much better. I still have a little stuffy nose but I feeling well. I will definitely make myself get up and workout Saturday morning. I also have dance rehearsel Friday evening so that will count for some cardio too. Thanks for checking in.

Best of health to you. :)

Day #77

Daily Thought: I am who I am and I make no excuses. God has designed me to fulfill His plan. We all have a purpose and I am just called to fulfill my own. So let me be the best me I can be.

Food Journal:
11:30am Breakfast- 3 egg whites (75), sprinkle of lite cheese (40), spinach (15), salsa (5), 1 cup oatmeal (150), 1/2 banana (70), and hot green tea (0)
3:00pm Lunch- (Applebee's) asian grilled chicken salad, 3 tbsp spinach articoke dip, 3 tbsp salsa and about 15 chips, 1 small onion ring, 3 tsp of vanilla ice cream w/ hot fudge.
7:00pm Tall Green Tea Latte w/ soymilk from Starbucks
10:30opm Dinner- chicken tortilla soup (320), 17 special K crackers (90), 2 onion rings (leftover from lunch)

I slept in pretty late today because Jazzy didn't have school today. It was very nice. We stayed up pretty late the night before so we enjoyed the nice snooze. I ate breakfast pretty late. We went out shopping with my mom and had lunch for my birthday. My mom didn't get to celebrate with me on Friday so she treated me to Applebee's for a late lunch. I had some appetizer's and ate a nice big salad. My mom let the waitress know about my birthday so they brought me out a mini hot fudge sundae (shooter). I had 3 tsps and gave the rest to Jazzy.

Jazzy and I went to an orientation for a food pantry I am going to start volunteering at. After that we went to church and I got home at about 10:30pm. We were a little hungry so we had a little something to eat.

I didn't have time for exercising but I did some walking around while shopping. I have a small sharp pain in my back so I am watching that too. I don't know if it's a pinched nerve or what but I need to be careful. Dang just as I am getting better from my cold another thing sneaks up on me. I will be careful but I will get a little cardio in tomorrow.

Thanks for reading. See you tomorrow.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Day #76

Food Journal:
(9:30am)Breakfast- 1 c. steel cut oatmeal (150), 3 egg whites (75), spinach (10), 1 tbsp salsa (5), 1/2 banana (70), 1/4 avacado (60) =total 375 calories
(11:30am)Snack- pear (80)
(1:30pm)Lunch- 3 oz Salmon (180), 1 tsp lite mayo (25), whole wheat pita (130), spinach (15), tomato (10), 1/2 banana (70) =total 430 calories
(3:45pm)Snack- 6 oz peach soy yogurt (160), frozen berries (26), 6 almonds (50) =total 236 calories
(5:45pm)Dinner- 4oz. chicken tenders (141) w/ 2 tbsp of soyaki sauce (80), 1/4 cup harvest grains (170), 2 cups steamed baby bok choy (20) =total 411 calories
(7:00pm) Green Tea Latte w/ soy milk (110)
(*Snacked on 90 calories worth of speacial K tomato basil crackers throughout the day)
Daily Total= 1,732 calories

I enjoyed all of my food today except for my lunch. I made myself eat most of it but the salmon was left overs from last night and it didn't taste as good. I ate 1/2 banana just to take the nasty taste out of my mouth. Then I went and brushed my teeth. I don't think I can do salmon very often. Last night is was really yummy but today it was pretty fishy tasting. YUCK! I prefer Tilapia but they didn't have any wild Tilapia at Trader Joe's when I went shopping. Glad the salmon is gone now. Don't have to eat anymore the rest of the week. :)

No intense working out today. I am definitely getting better but still not up to doing a hard workout. I am trying to be patient because I can't stand anymore of this non activity :). I want to make sure I am 100% before I get back into my routine.

I am going to do the following light weight training routine just for a little calorie burn.
biceps, triceps and shoulders (7 lbs) 3 set of 12
100 squats w/ 7 lbs weights


Today's Thoughts:
I read over all my old posts today from the very begining of my journey. I was pretty impressed with my progress as far as my food intake goes. I was actually a little discouraged with myself though because I think I should have bigger results since it has been almost 3 months since the beginning. I was wondering what am I doing wrong. Do I need to cut more calories? Do I need to workout harder? Am I working out too hard? Am I not eating enough? Why is the scale not moving like I think it should?

Then I took some pictures of myself today and compared them from the pics I took the first week. Some of the pics I will not post because they are too personal for me to share. While examining the pictures I did notice a significant difference in the shape of my body. I must give myself credit. I may not be dropping a lot of pounds but that is not all that counts. I am dropping inches and my body is transforming. My shape is changing. So for that I am proud.

I also have to realize that my attitude about food has changed. I am more disciplined and my over all outlook on life is changing. My body, mind and soul are in better sync and that is what I initially set out to do. I wanted to achieve a total transformation. Like I have said before if the mind is strong so is the body. So even though I keep striving to achieve my goal weight I know my mind is now prepared to reach it. These last 76 days have given me more focus and determination to press forward and do what I have only dreamed of doing.

Thanks for following me this far. There is so much more to come. Love you.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Pizza Lovers

I just wanted to share some healthy alternatives for pizza lovers. I like making this kind of stuff for my daughter instead of ordering greasy pizza. She likes to take this to school too for lunch instead of the regular boring sandwhich. There are several variations you can use in order to satisfy your pizza cravings. You can add the kind of veggies and meats you like. The recipe I am sharing is just for a simple cheese pizza.

Ingredients needed:
whole wheat pita pocket
1/4 c low fat mozzerlla cheese
tomato paste (unsalted)
italian seasoning
garlic powder or garlic salt if your prefer

There are two ways I will share to making this personal pizza.

First season your tomato paste w/ italian seasoning and the garlic powder or salt.

#1 Spread the paste onto one side of your pita. Sprinkle the cheese on the top. Next put the pita pizza in a non stick cookie sheet and bake in the oven on 350 degrees until your cheese is melted. Enjoy.

#2 Second way to make your pizza is to make a pizza pocket. Take your pita and make a cut along the edge of the pita just big enough to stuff the pocket. Spread your paste and sprinkle your cheese. Bake in the oven until cheese is melted or grill it on a panini press or George Forman Grill. I usually spray the grill with olive oil or another cooking spray to add some crunch to my pita.

You can enjoy this whole personal pan pizza for a little more then 200 calories (Depending on your ingredients). Better then a Pizza Hut personal pan cheese pizza that is a whooping 620 calories. WOW!

Variations:
1. Supreme- add some lean italian turkey sausage and sauteed veggies. (my favorite...I even like to add fresh tomatoes instead of paste. I also like to add broccoli)
2. Pepperoni- add turkey pepperoni
3. BBQ chicken- add cooked chicken breast, low-sugar bbq sauce and sliced jalapenos.
4. Veggie- just add lots of your favorite veggies and low fat cheese. Yummy.
5. Hot Wing- add cooked chicken breast, frank red hot sauce and cheese. After cooked drizzle a little low fat ranch on top or season chicken breast w/ dry ranch dip seasoning before cooking.

Tip: You can make a pizza pocket with just ham and cheese for a healthy alternative to the Hot Pockets that kids love so much.

Let me know what you think. Or if you have any recipes leave me a comment. Thanks.

Updated Picture


Update picture of me on 12/13/2009.

Day #75

Daily Thougt: Today I feel great. I started my new eating regimen....or "diet". My breakfast was pretty filling. I am excited to see my results after a week of healthy eating and atleast 30 minutes of exercise a day.

I decided to take the working out down a notch for about a month. I will focus on walking 30 minutes a day and weight training twice a week. I know one of the reasons I have been getting sick is because I have been over doing it. I get very obsessed with things and can push myself a little over the edge..LOL!

I am just going to focus on consistancy and healthy eating until my body recovers completely over the next month. Balance is key. Too much good stuff can be bad too. We can go from one unhealthy addiction to a healthy one if we don't learn to find balance.

When it comes to discipline...which is what started this whole journey for me....we must learn to keep things leveled. We can go from one extreme to another and actually still be unhealthy. This is something that I need to work on for myself. It is different for everyone. For my goals I know that I must take these steps carefully and consciously.

Some women go from being overweight to being so obsessed about staying skinny. It is about being healthy. And being healthy starts in the mind. Healthy mind = healthy body. To maintain a healthy weight and lifestyle is my goal. I don't want to go from overweight and insecure to skinny and still insecure. I see this happen all the time and it is so sad to me. I want to help break that sick cycle of obsessive behavior.

Food Journal: I am including times to make sure I am eating properly. Not too late and not too early. That is a very important part to weight loss and keeping your metabolism fired up.

(9:30 am)Breakfast- 3 egg whites, 1 c steel cut oatmeal w/ soy milk and a banana, 1 cup of hot green tea (unsweetened), 6 raw almonds =total 415 calories


(11:30am)Snack- 1 medium apple, 20 oz of water =total 80 calories
(1:30pm) Lunch- pita sandwhich and 10.5 oz minestrone soup (1/2 pita, 2 oz turkey, lettuce, tomato, 1/2 avacado, drizzle of dressing) =total 480 calories
(I am having trouble downloading the picture of my lunch so I will update tomorrow.)

pic posted 12/18/2009

(4:00pm) Snack- 1 tbsp raw almonds, 1/8 c. raisins =total 120 calories
(5:40pm) Snack- I was hungry before preparing dinner so I snacked on some crackers. 17 special K crackers (90 calories)
(6:15pm) Dinner- 4 oz Salmon (230), small sweet potato (54), broccoli (25), romaine lettuce (15), light dressing (45), light butter (25) =total 394 calories

Sweet Snack- green tea latte w/ soy milk (110 calories)
(9:15pm) Snack- 17 special K crackers (90 calories)
(10:00pm)Snack- granola bar (120)
Daily Total= 1,899 calories of wonderful healthy food.

My first day of eating was great. I tried my best to stay on track. I am motivated to reach my ideal weight goal by the summer. The journey may be a little long but I am surely on my way. Thanks for taking this ride with me.

No working out today. Still dealing with this bad cold. As hard as it is for me to sit still I have to rest in order to get rid of this. I will do some crunches tonight though....about 400. ********Update********I was only able to do 125 crunches because I got extremely nauseous from my medicine while doing them. I had to go get a snack to absorb the medicine. :(

Discipline

Discipline starts in the mind. Don't ask your body to do something your mind won't do.

Always stay positive during your weight loss journey. Remember that your success starts in your mind. If you keep positive thoughts locked in then your body will follow. Visualize your new transformed body and put your body to action. Don't just think about it....do it!!!! Move forward with direction, passion and purpose.


Today, I started my new eating regimen. I hate the word "diet" because it sounds so restricting. That word has a tendancy to make people run from the fear of defeat. Eating healthy does not have to take sacrifice. It takes discipline.

You first have to find your motivation. What is moving your to take action? Is it your health? Your family? A vacation? A new outfit? What ever has caused you to get up and take action towards a new healthier you is what is going to keep you pressing forward.

For me it is the realization of my value. I am realizing that I am worth the time it takes to be healthy and feel good about myself. After years of emotional eating I reached a weight that became very dangerous for my health. I was unhappy and lost in pounds of guilt, shame and low self-esteem.

I realized God created me and I was powerful beyond measure. All that He has planned for me to achieve in this life is dependant on my ability to be disciplined. I can not expect to live my destiny if I am not respecting my body. I must understand deep down in my being that I am God's temple. (Read my other blog for more detail.)

This is how my journey began but it is different for everyone. The one thing we all share is the drive and desire to achieve our individual goals. Your mind has to be made up. You have to press forward no matter the obstacles. The excuses have to stop. You have to make the conscious decision to put yourself first. You can not give the best of yourself to anyone unless you give it to yourself first.

Start with your mind and the rest will follow.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Day #74

Daily Thought: Trust that you are in God's hand. You are exactly where God wants you to be.

I rested most of the day. I did go grocery shopping for my new eating regimen. I am excited to start tomorrow.

Food Journal: No healthy food in house. I went grocery shopping today.
Breakfast- grilled cheese (200), piece of orange cranberry bread (140)
While at Trader Joe's I sampled a dark chocolate cookie and a cracker w/ salami and cheese.
Lunch- pasta salad w/ chicken (480)
Dinner- mandarin chicken w/ broccoli

No working out today. Just resting, taking Zicam and trying to get rid of this cold. I am going to try to atleast get a 30 minute workout on the treadmill tomorrow.

I got a nice compliment today. My mother in law said I am shrinking and that I look fabulous. I do see the difference and feel it in the way my clothes fits but it is nice when others see it too.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Day #73

Last night I didn't not go to the Salsa Club. My friend called to ask a question and they said the club was closed until next friday. It was kind of bitter sweet because I was excited to go but I was not feeling well. So I think it was best that I didn't go last night because I could have been worse off. I hope to be 100% by next week so I can go shake my bootie.

Today, Jazzy had planned to take me out for my birthday. We wanted to be out of the house by 9am to eat breakfast and then catch a movie but we didn't get out of bed until 10am. We got ready and went to breakfast in time to catch a movie at 12:30pm. We watched The Princess and The Frog. It was a wonderful thing to be able to spend some quality time together. She was happy to be able to take me out and spend time with me alone.

After the movie we headed to church for her choir rehearsel and dance rehearsel. I taught the little girls a dance routine for their youth service at the end of the month. I made them clips for their hair with a big red rose. I also made them a hip scarf with black lace fabric and bells so they can shake their hips. :)

Today was a really cold day but I had things to do so I was gone most of the day. I have a really bad cold and being out was not good but I will rest tomorrow. I only have to go grocery shopping. I have to buy food for my new eating regimen I start on Monday.

Food Journal:
Breakfast (11:30am)- 4 egg whites, hashbrown, 2 strips of turkey bacon and 1 1/2 pancakes. I ate alot of food but made some pretty healthy choices except for the hashbrowns and pancakes. I actually did not order the pancakes, Jazzy did, but she did not eat them.....so I did :) Not sure of the calories and I don't really want to check. I let myself enjoy it because I know I will start new tomorrow.

Lunch- no lunch but I did have a Green Tea Latte with soy milk from Starbucks.
Dinner- 1 1/2 c of chicken tortilla soup, and 3 pieces of pizza. The pizza was not greasey and did not have thick crust. It was loaded with peppers, tomatoes, mushrooms, onions, and had some sausage and pepperoni but not alot of them. Not sure of calories. I was really wanting pizza today so I had some. :)
*****Update******
I had 2 more pieces of pizza.....LOL! Total today 5 pieces...LOL! Oh well I enjoyed it.

Workout:
I did do some dancing today for about 1 hour while I was teaching the girls their routine. That is all the working out I did today.

Thanks for checking in on me. Until tomorrow.......:)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Sample Menu For New Diet

Just wanted to give the details of one of the days on my new clean eating diet I will be starting on monday. Remember it is important to keep your metabolism fired up. Like wood to a fire. You have to keep food burning in your furnace. Don't let the fire (metabolism) die or you will not burn that unwanted fat. It is recommended that you eat every 2-3 hours. You should not go more then 3 hours without eating. It is also good to know that if you don't feed your body it will begin to eat up your muscle since it requires more energy to maintain it. So even though you think you are losing weight you may actually be losing important lean muscle. That is why some women are thin but still flabby.

Day 1

Breakfast (9am)
1 cup oatmeal w/ flax seeds
3 egg whites
1 banana
6 almonds
green tea

Snack (11am)
1 medium apple

Lunch (1pm)
4 oz. turkey
2 slices of Ezekiel bread
low fat mayo
lettuce
tomato
1 cup veggie soup

Snack (3pm or 4pm)
6 oz. soy yogurt
1 pear
6 whole grain crackers

Dinner (6pm)
4 oz. salmon
1 medium sweet potato
1 cup asparagus
2 cups salad
2 tbsp. low fat dressing

Snack (8pm)
green tea latte w/ soy milk
1/4 cup almonds w/ dried fruit

This looks like a lot of food but it will keep your metabolism going. This is still in my allowed calorie range. I actually added the late snack to avoid the munchies and because I can add a little more calories to my diet due to the exercising I do. Remember that just because you eat healthy food doesn't mean you can overload your plate. You still have to measure your portions to suit your calories.

Wish me luck! I am excited to start this new food regimen.

Updates

I forgot to share some updates with you about my weight loss. I have not really relied too much on the scale since I am obviously doing alot of weight training. I don't want to be discouraged by the numbers on the scale so I have chosen to not look at it for a while. I will do new measurements and numbers at the beginning of my new eating routine I will be doing starting monday and after so I can let you guys know how it went.

Okay so the first thing that may seem really strange and a little bit personal is about my belly fat. I don't even know if you will understand what I am saying but here it is. So I have noticed that my belly button is not as deep as it used to be. What does this mean? LOLLL! This means that I am losing inches in my belly. Woohooo! I really do need to track my inches more closely and I will this monday like I mentioned.

The second thing is that Jazzy mentioned how I am getting smaller. She said she used to only be able to touch her finger tips when she hugged me. Now she says she can lock fingers and still has room. I think she is just getting bigger and longer arms but she insists that I am getting skinny. OKAY! anyways.

The other thing was that today I put on a denim jacket that never closed on me before. Today I was able to comfortably close it completely. That is progress.

Last but not least, I bought myself some new sweaters and tops and I like how they are starting to fit me. I can wear more form fitting clothes without feeling so self-conscious. I am still not where I want to be but I am traveling along the road quite well.

This is not a race....it is a marathon. I am heading for a healthy lifestyle not a temporary weight loss goal. Thanks for reading my blogs and keeping me accountable. I am excited to keep pursuing my goals into the new year and setting new ones in months to come. Stay tuned...this train isn't stopping anytime soon. :) Choochooooo! Full steam ahead :)

Day #72 Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I feel especially blessed today. I am so grateful for where I am in my life. I am not refering to natural possesion or my career or relationship status. I am talking about mentally, spiritually and emotionally. I am proud of my accomplishments and how far I have come in my journey. There are only amazing things to come in the following years. I know God has taken these last couple of years to prepare me for the things He has planned for me. I am grateful and thankful for all of my many blessings. Especially my friends and family who have been here with me to help encourage me and love me along the way.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- (egg sandwhich) 2 egg whites (38), cheese (50), lite mayo (20), two slices of toasted bread (150), mustard (0), banana (140) =total 398 calories
No lunch- I was not home all day until about 5:00pm. I snacked on a couple of saltine crackers (50) and vitamin water (10)
While at Sam's Club I sampled: a mini eclair, a small piece of coconut cake, 1/2 a mini burger, a piece of a chicken eggroll, and a bite of Jazzy's hotdog she bought at the snack bar :0) I guess that probably all totaled my lunch calories...huh? :)
Dinner- roasted chicken breast and steamed broccoli (not sure of calories)
Dessert- a small piece of my birthday cake.

Workout:
No workout today. I am still really sore from Wednesday workout. I am also sick with a cold now so I can not workout. I think I really need to rest for the rest of this week. This dang cold is kicking my butt :)

Tomorrow I am going to breakfast and to the movies with Jazzy for my birthday. She is taking me out (with my money:) See you all tomorrow. Thanks for reading.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Day #71

Last night I started getting a sore throat. This morning I woke up with the sore throat and the sniffles. I tried to rest today from working out to save myself for tomorrow night. I don't want to have to cancel my birthday festivities.

I went out to eat lunch today with my uncle that came to visit from San Diego. He is my mother's brother. We ate mexican food. I did very well with the chips. I only had a couple with some bean dip and salsa. I usually go nuts with them but I think I ate about 6. I tried to stay occupied talking so that I wouldn't mindlessly eat them. Worked out pretty well for me. :)

Food Journal:
Breakfast- egg white sandwhich and a slice of orange cranberry bread =440 calories
Lunch- grilled chicken w/ garlic grilled veggies (broccoli, cauliflower, zucchini), shredded lettuce w/ a tsp of guacamole. Munched on some tortilla chips (about 6) w/ bean dip and salsa. iced tea w/ lemon (not sure of the calories maybe about 500)
Dinner- soup (210), tuna w/ crackers (110) =total 320 calories
Dessert- a small piece of Red Velvet Cake (Jazzy made this for my birthday since I won't be home tomorrow night:) (not sure of calories)

I can not give a very accurate count of my calories today because I ate out and had some cake. I didn't eat alot so I know I stayed within my calorie range if not less.

Tonight I picked up a new issue of Oxygen Magazine. There is a 28 day menu for a wonderful clean eating diet. I made my daily menu and grocery list for next week. There are somethings I don't eat like beef, peanut butter or cream of wheat so I altered it a bit to fit my likes. It looks really yummy and I am excited to start it on Monday. The whole menu is within my calorie range which is great.

I read an article that talks about how many women cut their calories way too much and actually have trouble losing weight. I know this and have shared it before but I thought it was good to mention it again.

A normal active woman should be consuming anywhere from 2,000 to 2,200 calories to maintain a healthy weight. It says that if you are trying to lose weight you cut your calories by about 350 calories.

Many of us also starve or eat very little all day and then we eat one big meal. The article says that our bodies actually hold on to all those calories because it is afraid u are starving yourself. That hinders your weight loss and can cause havoc on your metabolism.

Each womens body is different so it is important that you research for yourself and maybe even ask a professional for advice. I just really want women to understand that eating less does not promote a healthy lifestyle or long term weight loss. Eating a well balanced diet and proper exercise is the only way. Educate yourself don't starve your mind or your body.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

New Yummy Snack


Pictured: Bumblebee Sensations Sundried Tomato and Basil Tuna Medley

I found a new yummy snack today that is only 110 calories/ 4.5 grams of fat and has 16 grams of protein. I found it at Target and it only cost me $1.47. They have Lemon Pepper and also Thai Chili flavor. This one pictured was Sundried Tomato and Basil. I really loved it. It comes with a little can of tuna already seasoned...no need for any addition stuff....and a small baggie of crackers...oh and a little spoon.

I only bought two of them to try them out but they are so good I am going tomorrow to stock up on some more. They are even good for Jazzy to snack on after school with a piece of fruit. Try them out and let me know what you think?
**************UPDATE**************************
I tried the Lemon Pepper flavor today and didn't really like it very much. The best so far is the Sundried Tomato and Basil. I still have to try the Thai Chili flavor. Once I buy it and try it out I will let you know.

Bumblebee Tuna and Luna Bar should pay me for these advertisements...LOL! Even though only my two primas, Lynnette and Iris, read this blog. :)

Birthday Outfit


Here is a picture of my outfit that I plan on wearing on Friday for my birthday. I am wearing a black sequin tank, a dark blue jean mini skirt, black boots and a bolero style knitted sweater. I plan on wearing some tights since it will be cold outside. If I don't like how it looks that night I might wear some dark wash blue jeans with my boots.

Here is what the outfit looks like on.

Here is another picture that Jazzy took of me but I don't like this angle. She took one while laying on the floor. But this gives you an idea of what the boots look like with the outfit.

Let me know what you think.

Day #70

Daily Thought: Live in the moment. Live each day to the fullest. Make yourself proud.

I was gone most of the day so I didn't eat too much today. I didn't have time to munch either which is good. I found a great snack today too that I will post a picture of.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- 3 egg whites (57), turkey (40), salsa (5), soy flour and oat tortilla (100), hot green tea (0) =total 202 calories
Snack- tall green tea latte w/ soy milk from starbucks (270)
Dinner- 1 1/2 turkey patty (255), romain lettuce (30), ketchup (20), mustard (0), hot sauce (0), mac n cheese (300) =total 605 calories
After workout snack- sundried tomato and basil tuna medley w/ crackers (110)
Daily Total =1,187 calories

Workout Journal:
1 hr of toning
I wanted to give you a detailed run down of my workout so you can see what I did in the hour workout. If you have any questions about how to perform any exercise please post a comment. Today was a total body workout because I haven't done one in a while since I have been a little sick. I probably won't be able to get out of bed tomorrow. :)
-Bicep curls 3 sets of 20 reps (using 10 lb dumbells)
-Tricep extensions 3 sets of 20 reps (10 lbs)
-Shoulder Press 3 sets of 20 reps (10 lbs)
-Single arm rows 2 sets (each arm) of 20 reps (15 lbs)
-Fly press (back) 1 set of 15 reps (10 lbs) (not sure if this is the correct name for this exercise...I will have to look it up:)

-Squats 3 sets of 25 reps (20 lbs) (alternating 5 full range of motion squats with 5 pulses, 5 full range, 5 pulses, 5 full range)
-hammercurls w/ rotation 3 sets of 20 reps (20 lbs)
-Curtsy Lunge (alternating legs) 1 set of 50 reps, 1 set of 40 reps, 1 set of 20 reps
-Push ups (girl) 3 sets of 25
-Wall pushups (this targets a different chest muscle) 2 set of 25
-Round house kicks (great for butt, legs and obliques) 2 sets (each leg) of 40
-Snap kicks 2 sets of 25 (1 set each leg)(also great for butt and legs..makes you use your stabalizer muscles (back and abs) to keep your balance....I did not put my foot down only to switch legs)
-Frog kicks 30 (targets inner thighs) and scissor kicks 30
-Plie Squats 2 sets of 25(targets inner thighs...one set was done on tippie toes (targeting calves too:) another set was done with 40 lbs of weight)

Not sure about the calories burned. For a vigorous weight training routine I would burn 560 calories for a general routine I would burn 316 so I burned something in between that I guess. Remember the benefits of weight training are long term. The more lean muscle you have the more calories you burn at rest as well as during exercise.

I know this must sound like a very long workout and it was. I rested for atleast 3 minutes in between sets. Between the first and second I rested for about 15 minutes because my brother came over to pick up his mail. After that I was just grinding to get it down. It is so important to meditate on the muscle so you use proper form and get a better workout. When I do squats I press thru the heels and squeeze my butt at the top. This is a great tip for squats. When you do any weight training it is good not to use momentum just to get the workout done. You use full range of motion and squeeze the muscle. (biceps squeeze at top and triceps squeeze at extension). I love to feel the burn. :)

I know this is a long blog today. Hope you enjoy reading it and maybe get some pointers. Please let me know if you have any advice as well. Or know a great workout that I might like to try. Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Day #69

Daily Thoughts: I am learning to embrace success. Essentially I am learning to embrace myself. I can't be afraid to achieve greatness because it is what I was created to do. I can't avoid it. Trying to duck and hide from it will only make me miserable because I am not living my life to the fullest. To surrender my heart to God means I am giving Him free reign over my thoughts, emotions, actions and even my fears. Whatever His will is for my life I can not escape it. My job is to learn about Him and myself and let Him take full control over me. We are one and I can do and will do all things through Him.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- 3 egg whites (57), turkey (50), tortilla (100), salsa (10), cheerios w/ 1% milk and 1/2 banana (230), hot green tea (0) =total 447 calories
Lunch- soup (corn chowder w/ chicken) (280), pringles (130) =total 410 calories
3 twizzler (130)
Snack- brown rice cake, hummus, turkey (190)
Dinner- cheerios w/ 1% milk and 1/2 banana (250), turkey sandwhich (210)=total 460 calories
Daily Total = 1,637 calories

Workout Journal:
40 min Kickboxing (Turbo Jam- Cardio Party) (350)
10 min Abs (62)
Daily Total= 412 calories burned

Final Thoughts: I got a pretty good workout in. I am slowly but surely getting back into my routine. I am still being careful not to run my body down too much. I hope to get back to running next week. My uncle asked me today what I wanted for Christmas. I said I wanted some running shoes. I really really need some running shoes pretty bad. Currently I have been running in walking shoes which is not good on my joints. I am excited to get some new shoes :)!!!! I am watching The Biggest Loser Finale right now so I will talk to you all tomorrow.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Day #68

Daily Thought: "The Holy Spirit asks us to give Him our hands, our feet, our voices, in order that He might use them as instruments for saving the world" from a Return To Love by Marianne Williamson.

My body is an instrument unto God....a temple of God.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- 3 egg whites (57), lite cheese (40), salsa (10), tortilla (100), turkey (50), 3/4 c honey nut cheerios w/ 1% milk just to wet cereal..I don't drink it(150) =total 307 calories
Snack- grapes
Lunch- Chicken Gumbo soup (300), hot green tea (0) =total 300 calories
Snack- cheese crackers (100)
Snack- pringles (120)
Dinner- pasta (210) w/ alfredo sauce (100) =total 310 calories
Snack- cheerios w/ 1% milk and 1/2 a banana (220)
Snack- brown rice cake (70), hummus (60), turkey (50) =total 190 calories
Daily Total= 1,547 calories

Workout Journal:
30 min of Zumba
I couldn't workout too hard. I still feel weak and a little sick. I did my best to do some exercise so I am happy with it. Little by little....step by step. :)

Final Thoughts: Today was a good day. Jazzy stayed home from school today. She was sick. Good thing I kept her home because it rained pretty hard today. Well I am so excited and looking forward to my birthday on Friday. This will be the first birthday party I have. It's not really a "party" but a bunch of my good friends and Zumba family are going to the salsa club. WOOHOOO! I know I will be burning major calories that day. I won't be wearing the kind of outfit I was planning to wear because I didn't reach my goal. BUT I am happy this far with my progress and consistancy and I have slimmed down some so I can still put on something cute. :) I'll make sure to take pics to share.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Day #67

Today was a great day. I woke up at about 8am and turned on the TV to watch the Las Vegas marathon. I was so inspired to pursue my goal for next year. God willing I will complete a half marathon next year (13.5 miles). My goal is to continue to eat well, run and enjoy other exercise routines until June. In June 2010 I will begin to train more intense to prepare for the marathon. I know that meditation will play a big role in my preparation. I told Jazzy the only thing that can get in my way of this goal is to get pregnant. But if I can help it that won't be happening. I really want to accomplish this goal. I know I can do it. I am very excited to fulfill this dream of mine. :)

I was gone for most of the day today. I went to church in the morning til about 1pm. The I went to a late lunch with my BFF and some other close friends. We went to Sweet Tomatoes this is a soup and salad buffet. I love it. Then I went back to church for Jazzy's christmas play rehearsel til about 7pm. After that I met up with my Tio Vero who was here for the weekend to see her father in law. I was so happy to see her after 20+ years and to meet her family. I love my family and feel so blessed to have the opportunity to reconnect with them after so many years. My day was overall a very wonderful day.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- protein bar (170)
1 twizzler
Lunch- salad w/ fat free italian, small baked potato w/ butter, sour cream and chives, 1/2 cup of turkey soup, a healthy low fat brownie w/ a little bit of frozen yogurt and chocolate syrup, 3 small pizza sticks (equals 1 slice of pizza) (?calories)
Treat- Starbucks tall green tea latte w/ soy milk (too warm me up:)
Dinner- 1/2 a turkey club sandwhich and a few fries (0)
2 cookies (250), crackers (200)

I had a very big lunch but it wasn't bad food. I had a little bit of everything but tried to fill up mostly on salad. Not sure of the calories consumed today because I ate out alot. I am sure I stayed within my calorie allowance so I am okay. The soup and salad didn't hold me for too long. I was hungry again after about 3 hours. Jazzy and I went to Denny's to meet my Tia and shared a sandwhich and fries. I did not workout today since I wasn't home all day. Tomorrow is a new day and I will try to have a decent workout. I still am not 100% but I can do something. I won't push too hard though. I don't think I can run probably until next week. Can't wait to start again.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Protein Bars


Pictured: Iced Oatmeal Raisin, Lemon Zest, Chocolate Raspberry, Cookies n' Cream, and Caramel Nut Brownie

These are my favorite protein bars. I love to have these for snacks and for my sweet tooth. My favorite one is the Iced Oatmeal Raisin. I also love the Chocolate Raspberry and Lemon Zest. I didn't take a picture of the Dulce De Leche but that is a good one too. I like to eat protein bars that taste like yummy desserts and have alot of nutritional value. Some protein bars don't offer very much protein or fiber....some that do don't taste very great. I personally love Luna bars because they are made especially for women. They know what our bodies need so they make them with us in mind.

They are not 100 calorie bars but they do have a higher protein content then most low calorie bars. The ones that I have shown in the picture are about 170-190 calories. When I want a sweet treat I usually just eat 1/2 of one. They are lower in sugar then a cookie, brownie or piece of cake. Not only that but they are good for you. :)

Next time you are at the store pick one up and let me know what you think. They have other yummy flavors such as Key Lime, Chai Tea, Nuts Over Chocolate and many many more. Hope you enjoy them just as much as I do. :)

Day #66

Daily Thought: I feel so blessed. I opened the window and was overwhelmed with gratitude for all that I have and for all the mountains I have conquered. I know I talk alot of about God but He is everything to me. I wouldn't be who I am without His presence in my life. I can't deny His love, grace and mercy. I am grateful for every little and big thing. Thank you God for loving me unconditionaly.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- 3 egg whites (57), lite cheese (40), salsa (10), tortilla (100), honey nut cheerios w/ lowfat milk (150) =total 357 calories
Snack- 1/2 oatmeal raisan protein bar (90) (my favorite kind) (see my other post)
Snack- pack of pringles (130)
Lunch- Italian Wedding Soup (240), crackers (60), cold green tea (0) =total 300 calories
Snack- 4 grilled chicken strips from Jack in the Box (243)
8 oz. french vanilla cappucino (200?)
Dinner- (Soft Taco) turkey meat (170), tortilla (100), lite cheese (40), salsa (10), lettuce (20), cold green tea (0) =total 340 calories
1 cookie (55)
Daily Total= 1,725 calories

Workout Journal:
I finally got a workout in. I got tired really easy but I tried my best to keep pushing. I had to modify some of my workout because I was still a little sick and weak. I felt good for the workout though. I also helped put my grandma (in laws) house together for Christmas. I changed her bed comforter (had to remove mattress to put on bed skirt), set up her artificial tree w/ ornaments, moved around her furniture and did lite cleaning. It took about 2 1/2 hours to do everything and I broke a good sweat. I most likely burned some calories with that too :)

40 minutes of toning (Turbo Sculpt DVD) (213)
5 minutes of abs (about 300+ crunches) (34)
Daily Total= 247 calories burned

Final Thoughts:
I am happy I got to work out today. I still don't feel a 100% but I did a little something to keep me motivated. My eating was not bad today either. I really enjoy eating soups during the cold weather. This is good since I load homemade soups up with lots of veggies (excluding potatoes). I will most likely be making a huge pot of soup next week because I am going to try to do a cleanse Wednesday and Thursday. I usually make a pot of veggie soup with low sodium broth for my cleansing days.

Today was a pretty good day. I hope to be able to get back into my routine soon. :)Thanks for reading my blogs and keeping me encouraged. I love you guys. :)

Friday, December 4, 2009

Day #65

Daily Thoughts:
Staying motivated and trying not to be discouraged. I have not worked out since Monday. I will do my weight training tomorrow for sure. I feel a little better today but my taste buds are kind of off. I am sensitive to the smell and taste of food. My throat was a little sore today and I had some sniffles so I hope the cold doesn't get a chance to set in. I need to buy some more vitamin C tomorrow. I have been drinking green tea too which has antioxidants and I think may help a little. ( I don't know). I am drinking lots of water like I do everyday. Atleast a gallon a day.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- (egg white burrito) 3 egg whites (57), salsa (10), cheese (40), tortilla (100), 5 apple slices (70), hot green tea (0) =total 274 calories
3 cookies (160)
Lunch- chicken gumbo soup (380), 8 crackers (96) =total 476 calories
Snack- protein bar (170)
1/2 grilled chicken honey mustard snack wrap from (McDonald's) (130)
Dinner- Italian Veggie Soup w/ lean turkey sausage (260), 10 crackers (120), 1/2 tbsp butter (50), cold green tea (0) =total 430 calories
2 cookies (106)
hot green tea
Daily Total = 1,746 calories

No workout today! Still resting....I guess my body wanted a weeks vacation. This could be an advantage and next week could be a max calorie burn since my body rested this week. Hopefully it works out this way. I did weigh myself yesterday and I did not gain any weight. That was a relief. :)

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Day #65

Still feeling sick. Came home after dropping Jazzy off at school and slept until almost 12pm.

Food Journal:
Breakfast- I was sleeping. Didn't eat anything.
Lunch- little bit of tater tot casserole (?) and a granola bar (90)
Snack- 1/2 protein bar (90)
Snack- 1/2 c. Cajun trail mix (320)
Dinner-burrito, 1/4 c brown rice pilaf (41) and green beans (burrito: soy veggie tortilla (100), lean turkey meat, cheese (40), salsa (10)
3 chips ahoy cookies (160)
****Update*****
Got hungry a night and had a snack
Quesadilla with salsa -soy flour veggie tortilla (100), lite cheese (40), salsa (10)
munched on the rest of my small bag of Cajun trail mix. (240)

No working out. Resting only! I did decorate my house for Christmas...that could have burned some calories :). Can't wait to get into my routine. I am being patient though. I will do some abs before I go to bed. I try to do about 500 crunches every other day.

***Update****
Did about 300 crunches (upper and lower abs)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Day #64

Still a little under the wheather today. I was so tempted to go workout but I don't want to give into this sickness. I know if I go to the gym I will push myself and might end up sicker then I feel now. I drank some EmergenC today (vitamin C) so I hope this boosts my immune system. I absolutely hate not working out. I will go tomorrow morning just for atleast a 30 minute walk or more if I feel strong enough.

I went to take my test today for the state job I applied for. I came home ate some breakfast and fell asleep for a couple of hours. The best thing to do when I feel nauseous is sleep because I feel yucky. I wasn't in the mood to track my calories today. I am not slacking just not feeling well. I did manage to eat in moderation so I know I did well.

Food Journal:
1/4 c oatmeal (tried to eat some oatmeal on my way to my test this morning...had a couple of spoons of it while driving)
Late Breakfast- 3 egg whites (57), lite cheese (40), lean turkey, salsa and a tortilla (97)(homemade breakfast burrito) and grapes (about 1 1/2 cups), hot green tea (0)
Snack- veggie chips
1 sweet and tangy twizzler (45)
a small piece of cake ;o)
Dinner- string bean chicken breast, 1 c. brown rice pilaf (165) and bite of a veggie eggroll
Sweets- bite of a chocolate protein bar (40)

Workout Journal:
No workout. Resting. :( It is making me crazy. I need to workout. I feel really yucky though...I have to listen to my body. "shut up already" (talking to my body:)

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Day #63

I am not feeling well today so I slept a good amount of the day. I don't want to actually get sick so I am being careful about putting extra stress on my body. I don't want to do any hard workouts because this will break my body down more. I have been really tired and kind of nauseous. It really sucks because I want to get my workouts in since next Friday is my birthday. As long as my calorie intake is good I shouldn't gain any weight. I can eat up to 1,700 without exercise and still lose weight. That is more then enough calories to get me through the non productive days I am having. :(

Food Journal:
Breakfast- oatmeal (160), 1/2 banana (70) =total 230 calories
Snack- Veggie Chips (160)
Lunch- Chicken Tortilla Soup (380)
Snack- apple slices (140)
3 sweet and sour twizzlers (175)
Dinner- homemade turkey sub (450)
Hot Green Tea
Lots of water all day.
Daily Total= 1,535 calories

Workout Journal:
Abs
Stretching

Final Thoughts:
I have been a little off lately. I have a lot of personal things going on and it has been kind of crazy in my head. I have been doing a lot of meditation and prayer the last couple of days. This is so important in my life as I have said before. I know that I would probably be in a looney house if I didn't include this in my daily routine. God is so amazing and I have to speak and listen to Him on a daily basis. He is the only thing that is constant in my life. He has never left me nor forsaked me. I am eternally grateful for all that He has done for me and been to me over these past hectic years of this life. He is my EVERYTHING!

It astonishes me when people deny His existance because I know how VERY present and visible He has been in my life. I see His miracles every day. If God didn't exist I wouldn't be here right now. He is very real to me.